Church
Today I think I realized that I am not at the right church for me. I'm not growing in the church. Kevin is growing immensely. I am very proud of him and want him to continue going. But I need to find a new place. I'm not feeling the pastor. And for some reason, he doesn't really acknowledge me. I've never really felt comfortable with him or his wife when she was there. There was something about them that I just couldn't put my finger on. I'm trying to listen to God to see what he wants me to do. I thought it was the devil trying to steal my joy by making me feeling this way. I've been feeling this way for over a year or so now. In a way, I think Kevin really has stolen the limelight from me through no fault of his own. It's just how I feel at this point. I don't want to feel this way anymore. I love him and I am amazed at how God is using him in the church. I want to help more in the church and become part of the community of the church. And not feel like I have to help out. I want to willingly help out. God says to give with a joyous heart. I can certainly tithe with a joyous heart because I know it doesn't matter where I give.....I just know that it is going to God's to help HIS church. Last year we lost quite a few members to another church. I really was sad to see them go. I'm going to check out that church to see if it is for me and if it isn't I will continue to look for one that does. Maybe this is what God wants.....maybe it isn't, but I need to go find out for sure.