being startled awake by a voice in your head, seems the only way to wake up these days. Then you roll over to see her face and see nothing but an empty bed staring back. You roll over, try to muster up some sheets and drift back asleep, but God knows, you'll miss her for another couple hours.

slowly realizing that he can't save the world.

I painted a picture today, well its next door on alijo's wall.

it's a ship in the middle of a field under a night sky.
and it says "I've been dreaming of ships that will not sail"

For those who do not know, I am flying out tommrow to CA. In my head, I tell myself, I am going home. This travel is happening so that I can visit Fuller, where its quite possible that I might be attending my gradute degree and well, get my masters in divinity. I'm heading out there with my dad, which makes me still feel like i'm 12, but we will ( Read more... )

I guess I am just so scared right now. I am going to CA in a couple days to go visit Fuller and its weird. To think that oh so soon, i'm leaving and going to my masters program and i still feel like i should be in the sandbox. I guess no one really grows up, they just pretend too and eventually just believe it. But I can't pretend right now.

clear as a bell.

How the girls can turn to ghosts before your eyes
And the very dreams that led to them are keeping them from dying
And how the grace with which she walked into your life
Will stay you in your steps, and pace with you a while
So long, so long.

Goodbye kate.

A note from my psychology book ( Read more... )

so desperately he grabs the old picture and tries to remember the memories tied to it. They looked so happy in it, holding each other, smiling. He wonders if in that momment, was it really love? if it is, then love is fleeting, if you ever have it, you better not get used to it, because it seems like in this world, if you blink your eyes, its gone ( Read more... )

i am alone in my defeat, i wish i knew you were safely at home. Missing your bed, I never sleep, avoiding the spots where we would have to speak, and this bottle of beast is taking me home.