I really truly don't know what I need to say. I have this blob of emotion rising in my throat that just won't leave but I don't know what it is. It's a mixture of doubt, hope, disappointment, hurt, confusion and a constant feeling that something is gonna go wrong and there is nothing I can do about it. The feeling that something is gonna go ( Read more... )

Wow, I'm not surprised that someone had to get himself arrested. Even if it wasn't his fault...it's kind of funny. Yes, if you can't guess I'm talking about Patrick. He was down at Tonic Nightclub I think last week and got himself arrested. He was with one of his friends who does mixers and then one of the bouncers just told him that he needed ( Read more... )

Last night was so much fun! After I got off of work Dani and I went to the mall. I got this extremely awesome jacket, a pair of purple and white pinstriped pants, and a pair of black cap pants for $100. Then this neon green mesh-holed shirt that I've wanted for the past two weeks. It was cool ( Read more... )

I have been so happy lately. Well ever since Saturday at my bosses bonfire. It was so much fun. I got to burn my "mind wiesel." Yeah that sounds weird so let me explain. My boss made these little wiesel like animals out of fun-furr and left an opening in them so that you could write down whatever was bothering you on a piece of paper, put it ( Read more... )

Well as hard as it will be, I can't take this shit being produced by Patrick. I feel like I'm just being pulled around by a string and I'm better than that. I don't have to put up with it and all I can ever hear myself saying is the same shit that I told Momma. She was better than my step-father and didn't have to take him leaving and walking ( Read more... )

Yeah...that is exactly what I was told. I was talking to my boss about the new revelations with Patrick and I, she just told me "Balls look good on you ( Read more... )

I was so ready to kick Brandon when I was about to leave his house the other day. Patrick and I were talking at my car while Brandon was messing around in his, well Patrick kept getting closer as if he was gonna give me a kiss. Just then Brandon yelled "What the Fuck, dude you coming up?" As soon as Brandon said that Patrick backed up and ( Read more... )

Last week Patrick called me back and I had to let him go so that I could take stuff into the house. Well once I was done I called, he didn't answer and I figured "well he just got home so he might be busy." I called back about 30min. later and he still didn't answer. I decided to leave him a message and I said, "Ok, well I called you back when I ( Read more... )

Well it has been about a week since my last entry and I guess that there is quite a bit that happened...Patrick and Dani came over on Sunday night (Dani left at about midnight but Patrick stayed till 4:30 again!), I met Patrick at his friend Brandon's apartment Tuesday morning about 12:20 am and stayed till about 2:30 am, then last night I was over ( Read more... )

Ok, well I know that the title is stupid but it works. I had to change the ugly, well because Patrick isn't ugly. You know, this boy is gonna be the death of me. He is gonna make me lose my mind quicker than anything, and somehow it doesn't bother me ( Read more... )