Comments | pyroicy: System Reset

pyroicy

System Reset

Jul 23, 2006 08:23

After a huge disaster hits, you spend some time in disbelief and denial. After awhile, reality hits and you realize you must move on, it's time to start the process of cleanup & recovery & picking up the pieces that are left. You cannot grieve forever ( Read more... )

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vespurrs July 23 2006, 21:10:56 UTC

I'm glad to hear this. :)

pyroicy July 24 2006, 02:28:25 UTC

I have a long road of recovery ahead. Maybe it includes reconciliation with Mo. We shall see.

LOL, Nathan and I have seen a Knight Rider parallel here, this whole situation seems mildly similar to "Killer K.I.T.T.". See if you can make the leap (turbo boost?) we did!

Also, more comments to you & my sis, below.

catchyseachild July 23 2006, 22:43:51 UTC

I have to say it - it's about time. Personally I wish you wouldn't send the card... seems like just inviting more potential heartache to me, but it's your decision. I understand it's hard to let her go. Still, I'm glad to see you focusing on something productive.

Why has it taken this long? pyroicy July 24 2006, 02:20:30 UTC

You have to remember that I didn't get a normal "breakup" with which to use as a milestone from which to start moving forward.

I literally went from having 100% affection to about 5% of what it was, without any warning, or fighting, etc. Most couples would have some sort of spin-down time, or some kind of warning that something bad was coming. This is not all Leah's fault: Leah was just saying "enough is enough" about my indecision, and I didn't know it.

And all along, I've had hope that maybe we can be back the way we were if I just "wait," "be patient, "give me time." I think Leah got into this relationship with him, not expecting it to last as long as it has.

Believe me, the kind of affection & adoration that I got from Leah was absolutely addictive. One day, I was her "Knight in Shining Armor," and without any warning, I was benched. It takes a very long time to get over this.

pyroicy July 24 2006, 02:33:07 UTC

Also, I might add that I think her decision to leave me and move on to someone else was--in the beginning--a very unsure one, that I'm reasonably certain an important person in her life had some major input on. "If he's not ready to commit, then move on, already." I think she still has doubts. Just not enough doubts to leave him.