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Feb 21, 2013 13:29

To follow up on what I wrote last night. I was kind of perfect as a kid. Top of my class... Top of the grade ahead of me's class. In kindergarten I was doing 1st grade work. In first grade I was doing 3rd grade work. Etc etc. star of the choir(hard to believe huh?) I wasn't the best athlete but I was definitely good. But that shit is normal for ( Read more... )

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drhikaru February 25 2013, 05:27:51 UTC

I've spent the last hour or so reading a couple of months of your posts.

It was quite the read.

I think, you need to stop living in the past. Live in the present for the future.

You're grown up now. You've had issues in the past you need to deal with, but that doesn't mean you need to let it dictate your future.

Depression is not easy to deal with. I get that.

But you need to stop living in your past and stop analyzing it and simply just live in the present.

If you're always looking behind you, you'll never see what's in front of you.

pyronikari February 25 2013, 06:04:02 UTC

I have. These writing aren't me dwelling on the past, so much as me recording and explaining the past. Although realistically no one reads these entries, and I'm not exactly writing these entries for other people, it's a way for me to explain my past self. I'm over the past, and anyone that has spent time with me in the past 2 months will vouch for this. These are parts of my past I have literally never told people, and never shown to the world. I needed an outlet. Again, I'm not dwelling, I'm accepting my past for what it was. And most importantly, I'm accepting the past me. All of my mistakes and all of my flaws ( ... )

drhikaru February 25 2013, 07:14:09 UTC

Hindsight is always 20/20.

If that is what it takes for you to move forward, so be it.

It sounds like its still a bit of pride you're fighting there, as if you need to prove to someone (maybe even yourself) by going back this far and writing about your flaws and mistakes.

pyronikari February 25 2013, 07:57:02 UTC

Not pride, so much as understanding. My perspective is pretty amazing, as I have insight that most people don't. I figure out things, people, and reasoning extremely well. But what I needed to come to terms with "being right" isn't always being right. Sometimes the best choices aren't what people want(though it may be what they need/need to hear) it's not what they nor want to hear sometimes ( ... )