First time to update in a while. I've been buried under homework the first day and then today I had a lighter load so I have time to update this ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in a while. School is starting soon, I'm not all that excited or nervous. I have the bouts of longing recently. Moments where I feel alone, isolated and starved for affection and contact with a loving bf figure. I know this is normal, that everyone has the need to feel loved by someone. But for me I usually don't like to accept ( Read more... )

Today I felt very accomplished. I didn't do all that much but still a bit more than I normally do. I did all my laundry, washed and folded (the folding part in the same day was a major change for me since I usually just throw the clean clothes on my desk). I had a good 45 minute long TK session. I really wish I had the skill to fully control things ( Read more... )

I feel the need to disappear right now. Not as in to escape punishment or something, but as in just wanting to leave, go to away for a while and be completely isolated with no human contact for a while. I can't explain where this feeling came from, but I don't feel as if I should or even need to be around so maybe I'll begin to fade out of ( Read more... )

Something happened today that kind of irritated me and also made me retract the bond I felt I was growing with my father and the trust I had. To better shed light on this I have to back track to yesterday, while in the end it may prove to be extraneous information I'm including it nonetheless ( Read more... )

So I haven't updated in a while. The most valid excuse would have to by my ever growing laziness. I always mean to, but by the end of the day I some how talk myself out of it. Anyway here is the update ( Read more... )

Yesterday wasn't bad either. Let's see... some of the highlights were... My mom brought up taking me to get my ear pierced for my birthday because I had wanted to earlier. However she failed to remember what dad's reaction was when I first brought up the issue. I looked over at him after she said that and his face was frozen stiff in a look like "I ( Read more... )

I haven't updated for few days. I keep meaning to but I get kind of lazy and just don't. Not a whole lot has gone on but enough to write about I suppose ( Read more... )

Today was a fairly good day. It was much better than yesterday... I can't believe I felt so bad about something so insignificant. It's sad, eh oh well. anyways ( Read more... )

I feel so... sad, alone, and depressed right now. One small thing caused my fall. I don't think it was that thing necessarily, Josh and I's fight might have affected me more than I thought and now I'm experiencing a backlash of emotions. I feel vunerable again, like I did that one day about a week or more ago. I can't figure out why I let the ( Read more... )