Valediction - Part 5b

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Title: Valediction  (Part 5b of 6) 
Rating: R Language, violence
Warnings: Angst. Oh, and then? More angst.  * Major Character Death *
Disclaimer: I own nothing except my thoughts, and even then sometimes, I rent.
Complete: Yes
General Summary: Canon thru 509(ish), right down to some of the scenes/dialogue directly from the show. Some just happen

Comments

[duffy_60]

Officially, this just killed me! I'm sitting here in tears. The way you wrote how Justin confronted Joan, and then having to deal with Gus was just brilliant and heartbreaking all at once.

And who did Justin punch out at Brian's funeral? You really have me curious there. I can think of some candidates, but only you know who it really is.

I very much look forward to the next installment, my dear.

Later,
Daphne

[q_dicted]

Please don't die! *g* The confrontation with Joan was one of the most difficult things I've written. I know Justin never really expected that kind of reaction and it was crushing for him. I think Gus helped Justin as much as Justin helped Gus - seeing some truly unconditional love for Brian was what he needed after that. Ahh, the funeral... what a day that was...

Thanks so much for taking the time to comment. It means the world to me.

[camelhaircoat]

Once again stunningly, amazingly, heartbreakingly beautiful. The only death!fic I've ever read that I don't want to end. Strangely it's a nightmare, but I sort of don't want to wake up - though I still miss Brian terribly with every sentence. You're very talented and I salute you.

*hugs*
Amy

[q_dicted]

Thank you so much! I miss Brian too - and it's important to me that he still be there in every sentence, so I can't think of a better compliment than that. And yeah, I kinda don't want it to end, either.

[ergenie]

I just died frm expelling too much water from my eyes after reading all the chapters again!!!!..... gosh!!! The words and sentences you use in your fic really capture the emotions of each characters and the scenes. I can picture everything that's written in this fic so vividly in my mind. I can't wait to read more..... my fav scene is definitely the one between Gus and Justin at Deb's plce.... that just killed and broke me to pieces....cheers.....

[q_dicted]

It's really a testament to how much we love these boys that it's so easy (and terribly difficult) to 'see' them in this situation. Most of the time I just write what they tell me! *g*

I'm glad you liked the Gus/Justin part - those two really need each other. Thanks for reading (and reading again!) and for taking the time to comment. I really appreciate it.

[templeton_ma]

*completely speechless*
I tasted the sadness in every single word of this chapter. My heart breaks for the loss of Brian, for Justin's courage and love, and for Gus's innocence. Watching Justin telling Gus while seeing Brian in little Gus was just tormenting. You did a great justice to Justin too. This is the Justin that would make Brian proud, the reason why Brian fell in love with Justin. And I definitely felt Brian's presence. And when I "heard" his voice saying "Look out for Gus for me", I wonder how Justin coped with his life with Brian being with him always. To be honest, I am a bit stunned when I read the last line but I can see why Justin would blame himself too. All the What-ifs must be killing Justin inside and out. Great writing. This story is definitely one of the most moving BJ fics on my list.

[templeton_ma]

Just to add to my comment... After goggling, now I know what Justin chose to be on Brian's headstone... It's just perfect (Although Brian would probably roll his eyes and say "Twat" with an affectionate smirk). And how masterful of you to reveal it in this same chapter with the sequence of events: the hate from Joan & Clair, then the grief from Gus and the gang, and finally focusing on the 2 people Brian loved the most besides Gus.

[q_dicted]

Oh! Brian would *so* roll his eyes at it. This was probably the most difficult 'line' of the whole story - deciding what would be on there. No way could it be something super mushy or maudlin - Brian would come back and haunt him!! I feel like 'Now I know what love is' applies to both of them, Brian and Justin. They both learned what love is, and what love isn't - and I think Justin will carry that with him forever.

I am just tickled that you looked it up (I had to, too!).

[q_dicted]

Ahh, 'what if' - that's really the heart of this whole story, I think. I imagine every person in Brian's life would feel at least a little guilt over him (even if they won't admit it). Both Justin and Michael have incredible burdens to carry and I think it's interesting to see how one of them rises above it while the other spirals downward. Of course Justin didn't get there overnight... But that's another chapter.

Thank you so much for the wonderful comment - I really appreciate it.

[tv_fan_2008]

Wow this story is so heartbreaking!!! Your characterisation continues to be perfect and you writing is amazing. I liked seeing Justin standing up to Joan and the way he handled Gus' questions about Brian. Just brillient!! Looking forward to seeing how this all progresses in the next chapter.

[q_dicted]

Thank you so much! Keeping their voices 'true' is the most important thing to me. I'm very glad you feel they are. Thanks for taking the time to let me know you're reading. It's so encouraging!