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[qeonos]

My horoscope for today:

"You might feel like going out and having a little fun right now, but there could be some responsibilities or obligations you have to other people that might be holding you back. Your desire to have a good time might be tempered a bit by your sense of duty right now."

Well, one other very tiny person.
Yeah, sense of duty-  Sure

Comments

[a_clear_job]

hmmm. welcome [temporarily at least] to the club of non-drinkers. yes, sometimes feeling socially distempered during "drinking night" goes with the territory. :P

[a_clear_job]

p.s. i think you look beautiful with the belly. don't feel bad for staying in. feel better, strong, and empowered. you get to do whatever you want, alone, just you and the baby and the cats. :)

[qeonos]

That's really sweet- And it did make me smile.
But I really can't help but feel lonely- It's not the not drinking that gets me, it's how other people react when I go out to spend time with people, only to feel like I no longer belong. It's stupid- And being "overly sensitive" is not helping. I feel like my life has changed so abruptly, and I wasn't ready for it. And I feel guilty for feeling that way, too.

[a_clear_job]

no one is "ready" for change my dear. you become ready because change forces you to be ready. you are such a strong person with a lot of love, i am so confident you will be the awesomest mother, and it will fill you with a sense of self-confidence, so much so that you will not worry about how other people react to your life change. you're not overly sensitive; you're just sensitive enough, and i know that is one of the things people value about you. :)

call me anytime, we can do lots of non-drinking-and-not-reacting-differently-to-you activities. :)

[kissingamemory]

It's unfortunate that we let societal pressures dictate what we should and shouldn't do. I see what you're saying -- sadly enough, there are people who will look at you differently and even judge you for being out at a bar with friends. But all your friends know that you would never do anything to endanger your baby, and a pregnant woman is perfectly within her rights to want to go out and have a good time dammit! We miss you when you're not around. We also have the added bonus now, of (if/when) our time comes, we'll have a friend we can go to for advice -- someone who, in my opinion, is handling these changes wonderfully :)

P.S. Seriously though -- I want to learn how to knit. If you're up for some bonding time in the summer (definitely non-drinking) I would so sign up for a class with you!

Saturday July 7, 14, 21, 28, August 4, 11
1 - 3 pm
Instructor: Suzette Argo. $85 for 6 weeks, not too bad. I know you just threw the knitting thing in as a stereotype...but hey, why not increase our skills?? Am I ever a dork...

[bellevegas]

I have a knitting for dummies book...I haven't made time to read it, but I seriously want to be a knitter. I made a scarf once...

And we do miss you when you aren't there. I totally understand the way you must be feeling, even if i haven't exactly been in the same situation, but I think everyone has been at something where they didn't feel like they belonged, or like everyone around them was judging them. But Leana is right, the only thing that really matters is what you think, and how you feel. You know we all love to have to at everything, but we're greedy, so when you don't really feel like being out there, take advantage of some alone time, turn the tunes up, grab your Shirley Temple, and dance around the house singing at the top of your lungs. (the cats won't tell)