whatever.
get it together.
we love you.
but you need to start helping yourself.
fixing all this shit.
you are never going to get out of the deep hole you have created for yourself if you never do anything positive.
Jesus Christ.
I am tired of worrying.
I am tired of blaming myself.
I love you.

the scary part it that that applies to angelo too.Fuck

no surprises with the election ( Read more... )

You Are 31 Years Old

31

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe ( Read more... )

you know when you say something and you feel like a total ass when you don't even mean it. sorry rachel. i didn't mean it.

(x) Smoked a cigarette ( Read more... )

I am thinking about getting my septum pierced after i move out. i don't think that would bother my allergies so much, and i really want my nosae pierced. besides septums rock. my mother would hate it though ( Read more... )

How do you document real life, when real life's getting more like fiction each day ( Read more... )

so there was this girl who stayed at my house with her brother and father. she was like fifteen. anyways, her dad sent my mom an e-mail and in it he said "so i guess carrie smokes pot because olivia (the girl) said something about it. It was and interesting conversation." My mom thought it was funny kind of. she asked me if i was smoking pot in the ( Read more... )

she typed into my cell phone that morning "i love you carrie ( Read more... )

i had a disturbing dream last night.
really. it was gross.
:)