I feel so distant, I see things and hear things, but I don't feel like I know what is going on. Like I am in my own world and things are just flying by, too fast for me to capture. This weekish off has left me confused. Mixed signals, bad phone calls...Good phone calls. Bored. I have the shakes right now...I hate that...can't stop shivering.

Alright well, this weekend was different.

Friday started out pretty fun, hanging out with Good 'ol Kiel. We went to spankies...Katy, Kiel, Em, Lib, Jennie, and I...Mitch was working...he's a crazy kid...I pizza was good...But I felt like shit...I made Katy drive to Erik's so I could lay down in the back...it Sucked...Well, actually she drove to ( Read more... )

                 I've decided I need to loose a little weight. Volleyball season coming up, and remembering that those tiny spandex don't look good on chunky people..yeah...Plus this year being on varsity, I have to wear those jerseys that are also skin tight spandex, no room for fatty flab...yeah...I think I should start ( Read more... )

Well, this weekend was really laid back, but in a good way. Just hanging out with my friends...nothing to do, no expectations...it was alright. I got teased to no end about my boobs and that guy. But I'm used to it..haha, its only cause katy wasn't there to be the target. haha. School monday was kinda weird...We totally kicked Newaygo's ass on ( Read more... )

Alright, well this whole live journal is just another place for me to vent, and no one to care. But I'll still keep at it. I'm sick of people just being there for themselves...In basketball, life, love...everything. I get annoyed of people thinking I hate them...or people thinking they are just there for people to hate, or that everyone is after ( Read more... )

Holy Cow, Well Melisa got accepted to Central, Jared to GVSU, Ken is off visiting California and Arizona colleges. This is so weird. I'm happy for them, I really am, I am just not prepared to have to say goodbye to most of my closest friends. I know I'll see them when they visit home, but it wont be the same. They will move on, grow up, and I'll be ( Read more... )

Man, I love that song, makes me want to cry every time I hear it! But anyway, got my little conversation over and done with. To tell you the truth, it was just as disappointing as I thought. Come to find out, I was right, about everything....I got used basically...well, I don't know if he likes me...but he doesn't want a serious relationship, not ( Read more... )

I hate being depressed. I could be very happy right now, but problems make everything so difficult ( Read more... )

wow....is the only word I can come up with right now. This weekend was definately one of the best I have had in a long time...which is saying a lot because I rarely have a bad weekend. I truely love all of my friends. And to those of them that I don't hang out with all the time..Trust me, I still love and appreciate you ( Read more... )

So I want to update this...and I have a lot to say...but no way to put it...I hate that...it seems like there are no words for my thoughts, and that if I try to type them, it would just end up confusing everyone, including myself. Some sercumstances this weekend really made me like that boy more...I truely think that this week...maybe even ( Read more... )