today and around
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tonight i got to talk to dr.Tam on the phone forever
because she has free calls to israel
to a land line
and now
i have a landline and a reason to pay for it
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my brotherzen
is selling cutco knives
tells me he has a briefcase
and alls i want
is to have BigBadLiz style him as:
theSalezman
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passed the framestore i pass
when it was open for a change
and talked about being an artist
with perhaps one of the owners
because i was lusting after all the corners in the shop.
they're being kicked out to build luxury condos
and i don't think they have anywhere to go.
he wants to make-
well.
first he said documentary
but then
then he started pitching this romantic
(in the jerusalem sense) movie
about english gardens and eco-living and mandates
and doers and conceptors
and this woman came in off the street to respond
and i had all these images
that simply bounced out of his descriptions;
my own
resewn talking points
we both left our contact information.
i don't know exactly
how he wants casting to be in this film
but he seemed excited about my ability
and i just want his store
for spinning frames
so whatever, you know?
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also
talked about possible collaborative project at mercaz hamagshimim;
know someone working there in the fall
coordinating shows.
she wants to do an israeli/anglo project
says she wants me to play:
we will see.
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built some more painting
need to cast arms in pieces of latex for sewing
been writing a lot.
been drawing and organizing.
been sending newResume/ portfolio all over.
because now that it's all done?
so easy.
have a bunch of different pdfs for the sending.
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been thinking about jerusalem
collective sorrow
unclean clothes
בנות יהודה (daughters of judah)
a symbolicphysical house of god
the future evolution of civilization
and i interrogated a man today
sitting behind a bus stop
saying tehillim (psalms)
and shaking his cup of coins
asking him about his kavanah (intentions.
like with your daughter.)
how he was sending his prayers
really, i don't know what was with today, today.
i asked him what psalm he was up to
read the beginning of the next one
and let him continue
tried to talk about the words
what it might mean now
i don't know what i wanted him to say.
he tried to give me mussar (homiletic-ethic-moral-speech)
it was weird
and in the end i didn't give him money
because
well.
i am not quite sure.
usually i have a street-coin rule
about just giving
not discerning.
not sure it's up to me to decide all the time.
but
i think because i wanted to have a different sort of discussion
and he tried to rebbe nachman me
pulled out a book
but then wouldn't read it to/with me.
he said
he doesn't talk to people (women? dunno. but my money is good.)
only to god.
so i said
how can it be only a vertical conversation?
what about the horizontal ones?
and then i heard my thoughts
sound like a cross
and a dirty joke
and what i really intended
all at the same time.
i don't know what possessed me.
i am such a freak.
got my 40 sheqs back from the incompetent keymaker
checked an apartment for s:
turned out to be the house i have been lusting after
ever since we lived on gidon st.
maybe a tel-aviv roof this fall.