Down a dangerous path...
What: RP with Cecile
Where: outside, near the stables
When: right after Kyle's conversation with Luca
Warnings: Aaaaaaaaangst on both parts
Kyle: *walking around outside, needing to calm the pounding in his heart and the shaking in his hands*
Cecile: *walking around with her lantern; Koroku oddly not at her side, she stands over an old wooden fence with some collapsed segments*
Kyle: *wanders a bit, a little dazed and stops, seeing a light* ...Cecile?
Cecile: *turns around, shines the lantern in his face, then immediately lowers it slightly so as to not get the light in his eyes* S-Sir Kyle!! What are you doing wandering about so late? Or are you patrolling too? *rhurries over*
Kyle: I...I just....*and then thought returns, an adrenaline rich rush that forces him to his knees, his teeth chattering in his mouth*
Cecile: Sir Kyle! *runs over, nearly dropping the lantern* Are you all right?! *sets the lantern down at her side and takes hold of his shoulders*
Kyle: I...I'm...I'm okay...I just....*swallows convulsively*...Feitas...*closes his eyes and concentrates his breathing*
Cecile: *slowly rubs the palms of her hands over his shoulders in a circular motion* You're shaking--did you fall? *looks him over for any injuries*
Kyle: No...I just got the shakes. I talked to Luca.
Cecile: *freezes for a moment, her gesture faltering, then resumes trying to rub his shoulders* Y-you should sit... and try to recuperate...
Kyle: Okay. Okay. *sits down instead of kneeling, breathing evenly* I went away for a bit to clear up things in my head. Think about stuff.
Cecile: *nods, and takes the lantern, setting it in her lap* It's okay.. it's just me--I do not think anything will pass by here I need to worry about while on patrol.
Kyle: *nods* So I had a lot to think about ever since I got really hurt. It was good to think about. But I went back to what you said. About Luca just wanting to kick away other lanterns?
Cecile: *quietly nods--it's been a very long time since she's had any thoughts regarding Luca in her mind* I.. I do...
Kyle: Because of what I thought about, I thought I might have some kind of understanding into his anger. So I talked to him. Honestly, I don't know if it's because I wanted to look him in the eye or if maybe...maybe I wanted to help him. In a weird way.
Cecile: ... *frowns, her expression conflicted* I... did you feel as though, there was something there, but it doesn't want to be there, it doesn't even want anyone to acknowledge it...?
Kyle: -Yes.- *fervently* He actually told me some things that I don't know if he wanted to let drop or...if there's something inside that needs help so bad it'll circumvent the anger. *there's tears in his eyes now* Feitas. My emotions are all over the place.
Cecile: *takes out a gingham kerchief from her skirt pocket, places it in his palm, then closes his fingers around it* When.. when your mind isn't clear and you're acting on your first instinct, it is hard to keep those guarded thoughts and feelings hidden.
Kyle: Yeah, you're right. I'm sorry I'm all...*takes the kerchief and cries into it* ...I'm just so -relieved.- I did it and I'm still here. Looked him in the eye. I didn't realize how much that really weighed me down all this time.
Cecile: ...Sir Kyle....
Kyle: Just...so...-relieved-. *as though each tear carried with it an enormous burden, he lets the tears roll down, turning his eyes bloodshot*
Cecile: .... I... I'm so jealous... *bursts out* You have so much courage to face things and I... I run away--! You're so strong..
Kyle: Cecile. *sniffling still* It's my turn to help you. He...he said he wants to meet you.
Cecile: *feels her blood run cold, then hot* Wh... *looks at him searchingly*
Kyle: And I said if you wanted to meet with him, I'd help you so no one else in the castle would try to stop you.
Kyle: That might have been not my business but it's like...I understand WHY you were helping him this whole time.
Cecile: ... Then.. then that makes you the first.
Kyle: Cecile...*and now he's the one to grab onto her shoulders, even with the tears still in his eyes and on his cheeks* ...I can't tell you everything. But when I was younger, bad things happened to me. The kind of things that would have made me very angry and exactly like Luca.
Cecile: *looks at his face, she has no idea what to think or say* But... but Sir Kyle.... Sir Kyle! *insistently* You're a good person!! Y-you mustn't say bad things about yourself!!!!
Kyle: It's not a bad thing if it's -true-. It just is. The reason I'm not like him as that there are special people who managed to help me right away and make the anger go away. So that I can be happy. What I think is, something bad happened to him. But no one was there right away. Or ever.
Cecile: ... I... *is suddenly reminded of the murder of her father, and all the people who surrounded her to help her move on; Juan, Martha, Eike* But there's always someone, isn't there?
Kyle: No, Cecile. Sometimes there isn't. Life isn't fair that way. But you know, you're trying -now.-
Cecile: *quietly* What if it's too late?
Kyle: I think this is what we have to find out.
Kyle: If it was really really too late, I don't think we'd even sense the -something-.
Cecile: But I don't think anyone else can sense it because back.... back a long time ago they told me that I shouldn't help or try..
Kyle: For whatever reason, we can. You because you're good at empathy and me because I can understand a bit how his mind works.
Cecile: *looks down at the flickering lantern* .. I'm scared..
Kyle: I'd be a little more scared if you WEREN'T scared. *blinks and tries to follow that logic* Anyway, it's all right to be scared. But you know, I feel so much better having talked to him. Not because of anything he said, but because I did it. Maybe it'll be the same for you.
Cecile: *bites her lower lip to stop it from quivering, then speaks, her voice wavering* I... I have questions, I need answers, I... I don't understand why he did what he did, and I.. I trusted him... I... it felt weird when he stopped patrolling with me... I've patrolled for so long alone, and then having someone else there, but gone again... just not hearing the other set of footprints... *buries her head in her hands*
Kyle: Hey. 'Sokay. *gently, he leans forward, to hug the young woman if that's what she needs* I understand.
Cecile: *sobs silently* I want to be strong and patrol without any fears anymore... but I don't want to jeopardize Master Thomas... I spent so long wondering, obsessing over the why that I had to stop thinking about it entirely.
Kyle: And that's why you avoided Luca. *pats her back softly* Makes sense.
Cecile: *nods quietly*
Kyle: Hey, maybe you were just waiting for me to get my head a bit straighter, eh? Always so polite, Cecile. *watery chuckle* But you know what? I think it's time we stopped being afraid.
Cecile: I'm ready to not be scared anymore.... I-I am an adult now!!! I need to be even better than before for Budehuc...
Kyle: Good. *sits back and lets her go* I've got an idea, if you want to hear it?
Cecile: *looks up* What is it...?
OneTrueBelmont: Kyle: He wants to meet with you. Like I said, I'd make sure no one else stopped you. Even though everyone else means well, if they stop it, I know you'll never be able to do it. Luckily you have me, Crazy Kyle, to help you do something so stupidly dangerous. You tell me when you want to meet, I'll scout for a good place, and then tell him.
Cecile: *weepy smile when he calls himself "Crazy Kyle" I... I think... is this the.. is this the right thing to do?
Kyle: You know...it might be the most dangerous thing to do...but if you want to be true to what you believe, then you have to follow down this path to the bitter end. Even so. But I'll be with you, okay? *offers his hand* I'll follow you.
Cecile: *hesitates for a moment, her hand suspended, then takes his in her own* I believe... even after... after what happened, part of me still wanted to believe, and seeing you here.. it proves that maybe I was right underneath all that.
Kyle: As a gambler would say, we're laying down all our cards on the table with this. You talk to Luca...I'll make sure to keep everyone away. But. If you -are- in danger and you're absolutely positive you can't take it on yourself, -scream- the word "Feitas." It'll be a code word for danger. And I -swear- I will come running.
Cecile: *nods, her free hand wanders over until it grasps the handle of the lantern* I... I think that if I were to meet... right here, at this time of day, it would be the most quiet to hear, but at the same time, it would be least likely for people to come.
Kyle: It is a bit deserted, I'd think. Just away from the track, hmm? So. Let's say any day over near here. You go have your conversation. I'll be away enough that I can't hear you just chatting but still hear a scream. I'll be practicing with my glaive. And strike up a conversation with anyone that walks by.
Cecile: *nods again* What...... what do you think will happen...?
Kyle: I have no freaking clue.
Cecile: *cracks a weak smile* Sir Kyle...?
Kyle: Yes?
Cecile: You are a hero.
Kyle: I....I am?
Cecile: *nods vigorously* Yes!!! So.. so you might not feel like it and went through bad things... but you are a hero.
Cecile: And I will make you and all of Budehuc proud.
Kyle: *taken aback* Thank you, Cecile. Okay...first, we're both strung out. I haven't actually -told- people I'm back. Let's all pretend that I just got back. You saw me coming back from where I was. Okay?
Cecile: Of course I did! *grins a little bit* And you must have endured a very long journey and are tired.
Kyle: I mean, that's why my eyes are all bloodshot. You were so nice and already took all my things to my room. *wink*
Cecile: *stands up, taking the lantern in her hand* But of course~ After all, it is the duty of a guard, especially on night watch!
Kyle: Okay. *tired smile* We'll just take our places at the front of the gates and go from there.
Cecile: *now it is her turn to offer him a hand* Having you as my ally doesn't make it seem so scary after all.
Kyle: That makes two of us. *takes that hand and walks with her, side by side*
Where: outside, near the stables
When: right after Kyle's conversation with Luca
Warnings: Aaaaaaaaangst on both parts
Kyle: *walking around outside, needing to calm the pounding in his heart and the shaking in his hands*
Cecile: *walking around with her lantern; Koroku oddly not at her side, she stands over an old wooden fence with some collapsed segments*
Kyle: *wanders a bit, a little dazed and stops, seeing a light* ...Cecile?
Cecile: *turns around, shines the lantern in his face, then immediately lowers it slightly so as to not get the light in his eyes* S-Sir Kyle!! What are you doing wandering about so late? Or are you patrolling too? *rhurries over*
Kyle: I...I just....*and then thought returns, an adrenaline rich rush that forces him to his knees, his teeth chattering in his mouth*
Cecile: Sir Kyle! *runs over, nearly dropping the lantern* Are you all right?! *sets the lantern down at her side and takes hold of his shoulders*
Kyle: I...I'm...I'm okay...I just....*swallows convulsively*...Feitas...*closes his eyes and concentrates his breathing*
Cecile: *slowly rubs the palms of her hands over his shoulders in a circular motion* You're shaking--did you fall? *looks him over for any injuries*
Kyle: No...I just got the shakes. I talked to Luca.
Cecile: *freezes for a moment, her gesture faltering, then resumes trying to rub his shoulders* Y-you should sit... and try to recuperate...
Kyle: Okay. Okay. *sits down instead of kneeling, breathing evenly* I went away for a bit to clear up things in my head. Think about stuff.
Cecile: *nods, and takes the lantern, setting it in her lap* It's okay.. it's just me--I do not think anything will pass by here I need to worry about while on patrol.
Kyle: *nods* So I had a lot to think about ever since I got really hurt. It was good to think about. But I went back to what you said. About Luca just wanting to kick away other lanterns?
Cecile: *quietly nods--it's been a very long time since she's had any thoughts regarding Luca in her mind* I.. I do...
Kyle: Because of what I thought about, I thought I might have some kind of understanding into his anger. So I talked to him. Honestly, I don't know if it's because I wanted to look him in the eye or if maybe...maybe I wanted to help him. In a weird way.
Cecile: ... *frowns, her expression conflicted* I... did you feel as though, there was something there, but it doesn't want to be there, it doesn't even want anyone to acknowledge it...?
Kyle: -Yes.- *fervently* He actually told me some things that I don't know if he wanted to let drop or...if there's something inside that needs help so bad it'll circumvent the anger. *there's tears in his eyes now* Feitas. My emotions are all over the place.
Cecile: *takes out a gingham kerchief from her skirt pocket, places it in his palm, then closes his fingers around it* When.. when your mind isn't clear and you're acting on your first instinct, it is hard to keep those guarded thoughts and feelings hidden.
Kyle: Yeah, you're right. I'm sorry I'm all...*takes the kerchief and cries into it* ...I'm just so -relieved.- I did it and I'm still here. Looked him in the eye. I didn't realize how much that really weighed me down all this time.
Cecile: ...Sir Kyle....
Kyle: Just...so...-relieved-. *as though each tear carried with it an enormous burden, he lets the tears roll down, turning his eyes bloodshot*
Cecile: .... I... I'm so jealous... *bursts out* You have so much courage to face things and I... I run away--! You're so strong..
Kyle: Cecile. *sniffling still* It's my turn to help you. He...he said he wants to meet you.
Cecile: *feels her blood run cold, then hot* Wh... *looks at him searchingly*
Kyle: And I said if you wanted to meet with him, I'd help you so no one else in the castle would try to stop you.
Kyle: That might have been not my business but it's like...I understand WHY you were helping him this whole time.
Cecile: ... Then.. then that makes you the first.
Kyle: Cecile...*and now he's the one to grab onto her shoulders, even with the tears still in his eyes and on his cheeks* ...I can't tell you everything. But when I was younger, bad things happened to me. The kind of things that would have made me very angry and exactly like Luca.
Cecile: *looks at his face, she has no idea what to think or say* But... but Sir Kyle.... Sir Kyle! *insistently* You're a good person!! Y-you mustn't say bad things about yourself!!!!
Kyle: It's not a bad thing if it's -true-. It just is. The reason I'm not like him as that there are special people who managed to help me right away and make the anger go away. So that I can be happy. What I think is, something bad happened to him. But no one was there right away. Or ever.
Cecile: ... I... *is suddenly reminded of the murder of her father, and all the people who surrounded her to help her move on; Juan, Martha, Eike* But there's always someone, isn't there?
Kyle: No, Cecile. Sometimes there isn't. Life isn't fair that way. But you know, you're trying -now.-
Cecile: *quietly* What if it's too late?
Kyle: I think this is what we have to find out.
Kyle: If it was really really too late, I don't think we'd even sense the -something-.
Cecile: But I don't think anyone else can sense it because back.... back a long time ago they told me that I shouldn't help or try..
Kyle: For whatever reason, we can. You because you're good at empathy and me because I can understand a bit how his mind works.
Cecile: *looks down at the flickering lantern* .. I'm scared..
Kyle: I'd be a little more scared if you WEREN'T scared. *blinks and tries to follow that logic* Anyway, it's all right to be scared. But you know, I feel so much better having talked to him. Not because of anything he said, but because I did it. Maybe it'll be the same for you.
Cecile: *bites her lower lip to stop it from quivering, then speaks, her voice wavering* I... I have questions, I need answers, I... I don't understand why he did what he did, and I.. I trusted him... I... it felt weird when he stopped patrolling with me... I've patrolled for so long alone, and then having someone else there, but gone again... just not hearing the other set of footprints... *buries her head in her hands*
Kyle: Hey. 'Sokay. *gently, he leans forward, to hug the young woman if that's what she needs* I understand.
Cecile: *sobs silently* I want to be strong and patrol without any fears anymore... but I don't want to jeopardize Master Thomas... I spent so long wondering, obsessing over the why that I had to stop thinking about it entirely.
Kyle: And that's why you avoided Luca. *pats her back softly* Makes sense.
Cecile: *nods quietly*
Kyle: Hey, maybe you were just waiting for me to get my head a bit straighter, eh? Always so polite, Cecile. *watery chuckle* But you know what? I think it's time we stopped being afraid.
Cecile: I'm ready to not be scared anymore.... I-I am an adult now!!! I need to be even better than before for Budehuc...
Kyle: Good. *sits back and lets her go* I've got an idea, if you want to hear it?
Cecile: *looks up* What is it...?
OneTrueBelmont: Kyle: He wants to meet with you. Like I said, I'd make sure no one else stopped you. Even though everyone else means well, if they stop it, I know you'll never be able to do it. Luckily you have me, Crazy Kyle, to help you do something so stupidly dangerous. You tell me when you want to meet, I'll scout for a good place, and then tell him.
Cecile: *weepy smile when he calls himself "Crazy Kyle" I... I think... is this the.. is this the right thing to do?
Kyle: You know...it might be the most dangerous thing to do...but if you want to be true to what you believe, then you have to follow down this path to the bitter end. Even so. But I'll be with you, okay? *offers his hand* I'll follow you.
Cecile: *hesitates for a moment, her hand suspended, then takes his in her own* I believe... even after... after what happened, part of me still wanted to believe, and seeing you here.. it proves that maybe I was right underneath all that.
Kyle: As a gambler would say, we're laying down all our cards on the table with this. You talk to Luca...I'll make sure to keep everyone away. But. If you -are- in danger and you're absolutely positive you can't take it on yourself, -scream- the word "Feitas." It'll be a code word for danger. And I -swear- I will come running.
Cecile: *nods, her free hand wanders over until it grasps the handle of the lantern* I... I think that if I were to meet... right here, at this time of day, it would be the most quiet to hear, but at the same time, it would be least likely for people to come.
Kyle: It is a bit deserted, I'd think. Just away from the track, hmm? So. Let's say any day over near here. You go have your conversation. I'll be away enough that I can't hear you just chatting but still hear a scream. I'll be practicing with my glaive. And strike up a conversation with anyone that walks by.
Cecile: *nods again* What...... what do you think will happen...?
Kyle: I have no freaking clue.
Cecile: *cracks a weak smile* Sir Kyle...?
Kyle: Yes?
Cecile: You are a hero.
Kyle: I....I am?
Cecile: *nods vigorously* Yes!!! So.. so you might not feel like it and went through bad things... but you are a hero.
Cecile: And I will make you and all of Budehuc proud.
Kyle: *taken aback* Thank you, Cecile. Okay...first, we're both strung out. I haven't actually -told- people I'm back. Let's all pretend that I just got back. You saw me coming back from where I was. Okay?
Cecile: Of course I did! *grins a little bit* And you must have endured a very long journey and are tired.
Kyle: I mean, that's why my eyes are all bloodshot. You were so nice and already took all my things to my room. *wink*
Cecile: *stands up, taking the lantern in her hand* But of course~ After all, it is the duty of a guard, especially on night watch!
Kyle: Okay. *tired smile* We'll just take our places at the front of the gates and go from there.
Cecile: *now it is her turn to offer him a hand* Having you as my ally doesn't make it seem so scary after all.
Kyle: That makes two of us. *takes that hand and walks with her, side by side*