went to go see dark water or something. i didnt like it. andy did. whatever. got a Take5 afterwards. score. i just farted ( Read more... )

i touched myself(and came) 4 times today. wow. im one horny woman...
what would the world do without vibrators i ask?

what a fucking boring day. i was so bored i begged mikelle to let me do a facial on her. so i did. then i did her makeup...twice. then i had a lip and chin wax. man was that girl a mess. poor thing. i listened to my ipod and stared at the wall for the remainder of the day. something i ALWAYS do. what is this shit?! i pay that damn school 10,000 ( Read more... )

i know, the change is sickening. but what the hell, since i've suddenly turned ultra gay why not modify the journal? wanna see something truley disturbing? go to my info page. my baby's freaky looking. with counseling i think we should all be okay

i should stop leaving school all the god damn time. my contract date is almost up. meaning i'll have to pay the school 10 bucks an hour any over time i do. ass ( Read more... )

i caught him looking at sippy cups online. it almost makes the morning (afternoon, and night) sickness go away.
it feels like when we were first dating again. we're so in love again.

I dont wanna get fat. im bloated. its gross ( Read more... )

Im not going to have an abortion after all. i talked to him and told him i needed to have it and i didn't want any help from him. i wanted to do it on my own. i was tired of always doing things for him. constantly trying to look my best so he'll notice me, always trying to look perfect or do things to get his attention. this wasnt up to him. its my ( Read more... )

im 4 weeks and six days
he wants me to get an abortion
i dont know what i want
we dont have any money what so ever
he sold his camera so we could pay bills
i have to pay my phone bill
we have to pay for an abortion
melinas missed too many days of school and might be terminated from the system
i've missed tons of school
i want to die

he doesnt even get close to me anymore. he doesnt touch me. he doesnt get turned on by me. he hates me.