this week was by far just wonderful

+ i passed by road test so i now HAVE MY LICENSE
+ my mother is getting me a really nice camera for my birthday
+ went to the bank and set up my bank account
+ went to sammio's for italian food
+ i finally received my report cardin the mail and again i am very proud to be a nerd
+ i can enjoy sleeping in
+ harry potter ( Read more... )

fourth of july this year didn't impress me too much. besides the sticky, hot weather..events & rides were super fun. i rode every single one. i ate a lot too along with some amazing snow cones. they were delicious. i went walking around for a while to look at the booths filled with clothes and other things. this boy smiled at me & i smiled back. <3

so the plans for the fourth are pretty simple and always the same as every year. going to fort bragg. toasting in the hot hot sun, eating pizza along with healthy food we also bring to munch on and watching a big finale of amazing fireworks. i don't mind it at all. i tend to be more excited about the flag ceremonies and little concerts they put on ( Read more... )

i'm watching eternal sunshine of the spotless mind right now. it's totally amazing. unfortunately i have a feeling my summer weekends are going to be spent like this. cooped up in my room alone either reading or watching movies. sure it's pathetic but i really don't mind. this morning i went to the woods. it was quite serene to say the least. i've ( Read more... )

it is ridiculous that someone like me should feel so down & lonely
i have ALMOST everything anyone could ever want
i'm so privileged & lucky in life
these sort of feelings shouldn't plague me
i'm so undeserving of them
i'm such a selfish person at times it makes me sick

so far in this month of june, it's been pretty amazing. i've been walking into the woods next to my house a lot lately & have been pretty adventurous by myself. of course i've been taking my dog with me. he's the only thing that loves me right now. blah..this summer my main priority is to make myself a happier person so be jealous because i have ( Read more... )

so it's father's day I miss you. lately i have been thinking about where i want to go to college. i need to start visting places. a good excuse to travel. :) i was thinking about Harvard & Yale among others. yeah i have big aspirations so ♥ OH YEAH i'm getting a truck to drive. &&& i really want to kiss a boy right now :)

the silence depressed me. it wasn't the silence of silence. it was my own silence.

it's extremely hot and humid. i just feel gross. i laid in my room and watched reservoir dogs. hooray for blood! i should probably clean up my atrocious room and paint my walls. but who knows if i will. the heat makes one completely unmotivated to do anything. i will probably just end up watching garden state in my room for the 908596456th time hmm ( Read more... )

yesterday was awesome. today isn't but it's alright. i've come to the conclusion that as long as i do something social once during the weekend it's okay. i don't have to fit into any standard of "normal" teenage behavior of going out every night. until i have my license or more friends that do, what exactly am i expected to do? it's also kind of ( Read more... )