TARA. DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH OF MY LIFE YOU JUST EXPRESSED? I love you. Now you're going to get a bunch of shit regurgitated to you followed by my responses.
Deep down I have the awful feeling that no one will ever love me in that romantic let's have sex all day kind of way. And it terrifies me.
Honestly, this is probably the scariest thing I can ever think of. I feel like my desire to feel wanted is...overwhelming to say the least. I don't know if I'll ever learn that it's alright to be by myself.
There's this part of my brain that still tells me that I'm playacting. That I've decided to call myself a lesbian because I suck at making relationships work with guys and becuase I think it makes me cool and different. And I HATE this little voice in my head because sometimes I believe it and it makes me hate myself.Alot of things that have happened lately...they've brought this back. And I'm more willing than ever to believe it, and it's incredibly confusing. I've taken to calling myself bisexual, but even that seems like it
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Confession: I don't like Garden State. When I watch that movie I feel like I'm missing something cause everyone says its the best thing ever.
Scrubs isn't half bad. They had a funny musical. I laughed. I've only watched a few eps.
Hey - do you have BSG DVDs or can we rent them and marathon a little this weekend? That's my summer TV project.
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ENDANGERED WILD POPPIES TO BE PRECISE.
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Um...Garden State is awesome. I don't know what else to tell you. It fills my heart with so much joy.
And yeah, Scrubs totally grew on me as time went on. I didn't like it at first and now I'm so obsessed. Anyhoo.
Don't have BSG DVD's...maybe I can rent some or buy them or steal them.
YAY FLOWERS AND HEARTS. I KNEW DEEP DOWN YOU LOVED ME DEEPLY. IN YOUR FACE RYAN.
LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE
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Deep down I have the awful feeling that no one will ever love me in that romantic let's have sex all day kind of way. And it terrifies me.
Honestly, this is probably the scariest thing I can ever think of. I feel like my desire to feel wanted is...overwhelming to say the least. I don't know if I'll ever learn that it's alright to be by myself.
There's this part of my brain that still tells me that I'm playacting. That I've decided to call myself a lesbian because I suck at making relationships work with guys and becuase I think it makes me cool and different. And I HATE this little voice in my head because sometimes I believe it and it makes me hate myself.Alot of things that have happened lately...they've brought this back. And I'm more willing than ever to believe it, and it's incredibly confusing. I've taken to calling myself bisexual, but even that seems like it ( ... )
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