I'm depressed and I don't give a fuck I'm not being anyones fucking strong, brave warrior anymore

[queensarcaste]

My birthday is in a few days. I'll be 23. The way things are looking, it'll be a year spent much like year 22 was. Wasted, pissed away in a drugged sleep, or in pain, staring at the television, hating each and every new breath taken. My personality is so caustic that I'm practically unlovable. Forget love, I'm so hideous that I'm untouchable

Comments

[tripwood]

i'd be your friend, i don't care how "horrible" you'd become. and you're cute, not hideous! i know you are a fantastic girl trapped in a shitty situation. finding how to make the most of it won't be easy, but if you still even have a little shred of hope in you, there's something to hold on to.

i'm also getting old, turned 23 recently. i still feel like a kid, no matter how much i don't want to.

talk to me on msn when you feel like it, i'm always near.

[bluesummers]

Oh, Jenna - Didn't I say I'd like to spend time with you? Either way I didn't mean to not say it. Sorry for that. Admittedly it's hard not to "go through the motions" to some extent when you're only connected online due to staggering geographical differences; I'm kind of feeling that way about a lot of my friendships nowadays, since I haven't gotten very set-up here friend-wise and I'm still in that "holding pattern" stage but excuses, excuses. I'm sorry.

And I've already missed a few friends' birthdays due to 1. the time difference and 2. being an idiot about the time difference, so let me go ahead and say Happy Birthday, whether it's the day there yet or not. You can save it.