I'm done with this life. I want it to change. I want everything in my life to change, but I would have to change first... I don't know if I can anymore.

I feel in these last 5 agonizing years that I have lost myself. Lost my innocence, my ignorance, and my heart. I knew one day things had to change, that I couldn't keep living in my own world where nothing could touch me.The years of my youth went fast and I fear that I can't show anything for it. Nothing ( Read more... )

Oh why cant I be what you need ( Read more... )

i sing to the words today as i sang to them that certain day ( Read more... )

So like, i've had strepp throat since thursday now... I had a 101.5 fever so I went to the doctor and they gave me two shots in my ass- which hurt like a mo-fo. i cried my eyes out. so like friday it went away and by night time i was fine. but then i went to FL and picked up my ex matt to hang out with my cousin and i got back yesterday after ( Read more... )

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What kind of daughter hates her own mother?

since the sudden death of my father recently...i've been running errends- and haven't really had anytime to myself... but i'll be in ohio for a week- no computer i think... i dunno how i'm going to deal with that- EVERYONE call me and say hi- even if u just say- "hey i'm on your myspace and wanted to say hiiiiiiiiiii..." the best advice i can give ( Read more... )

So, today my mother and I went to the vet- and put my dog to sleep. She was almost 15.She had tumors on her stomach that were breaking out of the skin- she suffers no more... I've been crying all day- my eyes are dry now and will supply no more tears. indulge your life- it is only too short and you know not when you die. Dance like you do when no ( Read more... )

So I sign up for college classes in two weeks, but everything is wrong. paperwork is the devil. my parents are out of the country- in South Africa.I'm bored with life. as usual.i'm working out of the ass- so i'm about to go to bed and sleep like i'm in a coma. that would be nice. miss everything happening aorund you - having a dream of dreams... ( Read more... )