the broken levee.
I knew based on the preview, how much this episode was going to hurt.
And still i wasn't ready. Sam's not thinking straight, Dean's not thinking straight and no one will listen to Bobby. I wanted to hit them both, make them hug it out. SOMETHING. *teary*
I've always thought, after watching Smallville for so many years until I couldn't bear to anymore, that the final reason that tipped Lex wasn't his father or that he was born to it, it was that Clark gave up on him, turned his back. That he believed everything that everyone else was telling him regarding Lex, instead of being there for him. I always thought Clark was Lex's reason to be good, and once he didn't have Clark with him anymore, he just didn't CARE. Clark was so self righteous about it and it drove me nuts. He knew that Lex was evil. I always wanted to slap him and say, no you MADE him that way. Anyway, I'm getting away from my point here.
I see this happening in Sam and Dean. Right there, in that episode, Sam clearly, desperately wanted Dean to trust him. And Dean was feeling so betrayed at this point that he didn't see it, but this was CRUCIAL and he fucked it up royally. The hard thing is that I don't even BLAME Dean right now. I think he was hoping that by calling Sam a monster he could shake him up, slap some sense into him. But instead all it did was push Sam out the door, maybe for good. Bobby said be good to him, he KNEW how unstable that fence is that Sam's on. But Dean is too close or too hurt, too everything to see this clearly.
I will not even entertain the thought that Dean believed it when he called Sam a monster. Because if that is where Kripke is going with this, then I don't know if I want a whole season more of it. My heart can't handle it. It's already shredded. I know they WANT to go back. Sam even said so. It's just, there's so much right now between them that I don't know if I can get over it, let alone if the writers can actually do it and have it be believable.
Stepping away for a moment from the absolute heart-wrench that every single brother moment was, please let's talk about Ruby and Lilith.
(My predictions are below, I don't know anything but I am pretty good at guessing the ends of stories. Don't look if you want to remain surprised.)
Okay. So. Ruby says, only 2-3 seals left. Check. Ruby says, only one demon, the "First" can break the 66th seal. Check the 2nd. Ruby never SAYS so, but Sam immediately jumps to this being Lilith. And Ruby goes along with it. Ergo Sam thinks that killing Lilith is the way to solve all his problems. This feeds directly into the revenge drive that he's been cultivating since Dean's death.
I have this HUGE feeling in my gut (a Leroy Jethro Gibbs' kinda gut feeling) that either Ruby has been the "First" all along, and that is why she's been helping Sam since the beginning of season three (this also explains why all the other demons TRY to get rid of her but you know, never follow through).
OR. And actually I think this is the more likely of the two, that the Real Ruby (Version 1), the one we met in Season 3, is still in hell. And that Version 2 is actually Lucifer's First. That she came up out of the pit with the express purpose of derailing Sam Winchester, keeping him out of the way while they get Lucifer free. And she's using him to cut out all the problems she doesn't want around once Lucifer is out (i.e. Lilith).
Fact:
- This season's Ruby is WILDLY different. Not just in oh hey, brown hair versus blond, in mannerisms, in how she is with Sam, in how she speaks of Dean and the boy's relationship. V1 Ruby could care less about Dean really, and how much Sam loved him. She knew she could use it to get Sam to do what she wanted, but she was NEVER respectful of the boys' bond. V2 suddenly is. It was the FIRST thing I noticed about her in 401 and it bothered me HUGELY even then.
- There is no way to tell one black cloud of demon smoke from the other. Until they possess someone and tell you, you have no idea what demon they are! They can ALWAYS be lying. The only time we can for sure tell them apart is when a demon with a signature eye color shows that eye color. The only demons like that (that we know of) are Azazel (dead), Crossroads Demon (dead), Alastair (dead) and Lilith. The others are all just inky blackness. There is no way to prove that V2 Ruby is the demon we knew as Ruby from season three.
- There is no way to prove that the demon blood way of life is what V1 Ruby meant when she said Sam could save Dean. She told Sam it would mean doing things he wouldn't like, yes, but she always seemed to imply that she meant using Sam's mind control powers. And really, who knows what she meant, it could have been anything.
I think that in the last episode Sam will kill Lilith and then we'll see Ruby turn around and begin to break the final seal. And that is where Dean will come in. And the real trouble will start.
Just think how many times he tried to kill Ruby. So many times since the third season he's gotten so close and Sam stopped him again and again. If I'm right and Ruby is the real danger, then holy shit are those boys in trouble. She knows every weakness they have, Sam is wrapped tight around her finger and I shudder to think what's going to happen next week. I honestly don't know how I will be able to handle it without someone they are to support me. Oh fangirls why do you live so far away!
The only silver lining I can see is that maybe when Ruby shows her true colors Sam and Dean will be able to reunite, if only to take her out. I'm not in any way thinking that they would be okay but maybe they would be able to start to rebuild their relationship.
I haven't looked at any spoilers, I have no idea how the season will end. So I could either be right on with these predictions or I could be completely off-base. But if I am right, it will be because I am SMARTER THAN KRIPKE. \o/ And that's pretty cool. ;D But I don't appreciate what Kripke is doing to our boys. In fact I hate what Kripke has done to our boys.
I don't even know how I can enjoy this season so much and loathe it so much all at the same time. It hurts a lot right now, not in the good way.
Damn you Kripke!
I have a lot of speculation under the cut, so don't look if you think I'm good at guessing the ending? LOL. No actual spoilers I suppose.
And still i wasn't ready. Sam's not thinking straight, Dean's not thinking straight and no one will listen to Bobby. I wanted to hit them both, make them hug it out. SOMETHING. *teary*
I've always thought, after watching Smallville for so many years until I couldn't bear to anymore, that the final reason that tipped Lex wasn't his father or that he was born to it, it was that Clark gave up on him, turned his back. That he believed everything that everyone else was telling him regarding Lex, instead of being there for him. I always thought Clark was Lex's reason to be good, and once he didn't have Clark with him anymore, he just didn't CARE. Clark was so self righteous about it and it drove me nuts. He knew that Lex was evil. I always wanted to slap him and say, no you MADE him that way. Anyway, I'm getting away from my point here.
I see this happening in Sam and Dean. Right there, in that episode, Sam clearly, desperately wanted Dean to trust him. And Dean was feeling so betrayed at this point that he didn't see it, but this was CRUCIAL and he fucked it up royally. The hard thing is that I don't even BLAME Dean right now. I think he was hoping that by calling Sam a monster he could shake him up, slap some sense into him. But instead all it did was push Sam out the door, maybe for good. Bobby said be good to him, he KNEW how unstable that fence is that Sam's on. But Dean is too close or too hurt, too everything to see this clearly.
I will not even entertain the thought that Dean believed it when he called Sam a monster. Because if that is where Kripke is going with this, then I don't know if I want a whole season more of it. My heart can't handle it. It's already shredded. I know they WANT to go back. Sam even said so. It's just, there's so much right now between them that I don't know if I can get over it, let alone if the writers can actually do it and have it be believable.
Stepping away for a moment from the absolute heart-wrench that every single brother moment was, please let's talk about Ruby and Lilith.
(My predictions are below, I don't know anything but I am pretty good at guessing the ends of stories. Don't look if you want to remain surprised.)
Okay. So. Ruby says, only 2-3 seals left. Check. Ruby says, only one demon, the "First" can break the 66th seal. Check the 2nd. Ruby never SAYS so, but Sam immediately jumps to this being Lilith. And Ruby goes along with it. Ergo Sam thinks that killing Lilith is the way to solve all his problems. This feeds directly into the revenge drive that he's been cultivating since Dean's death.
I have this HUGE feeling in my gut (a Leroy Jethro Gibbs' kinda gut feeling) that either Ruby has been the "First" all along, and that is why she's been helping Sam since the beginning of season three (this also explains why all the other demons TRY to get rid of her but you know, never follow through).
OR. And actually I think this is the more likely of the two, that the Real Ruby (Version 1), the one we met in Season 3, is still in hell. And that Version 2 is actually Lucifer's First. That she came up out of the pit with the express purpose of derailing Sam Winchester, keeping him out of the way while they get Lucifer free. And she's using him to cut out all the problems she doesn't want around once Lucifer is out (i.e. Lilith).
Fact:
- This season's Ruby is WILDLY different. Not just in oh hey, brown hair versus blond, in mannerisms, in how she is with Sam, in how she speaks of Dean and the boy's relationship. V1 Ruby could care less about Dean really, and how much Sam loved him. She knew she could use it to get Sam to do what she wanted, but she was NEVER respectful of the boys' bond. V2 suddenly is. It was the FIRST thing I noticed about her in 401 and it bothered me HUGELY even then.
- There is no way to tell one black cloud of demon smoke from the other. Until they possess someone and tell you, you have no idea what demon they are! They can ALWAYS be lying. The only time we can for sure tell them apart is when a demon with a signature eye color shows that eye color. The only demons like that (that we know of) are Azazel (dead), Crossroads Demon (dead), Alastair (dead) and Lilith. The others are all just inky blackness. There is no way to prove that V2 Ruby is the demon we knew as Ruby from season three.
- There is no way to prove that the demon blood way of life is what V1 Ruby meant when she said Sam could save Dean. She told Sam it would mean doing things he wouldn't like, yes, but she always seemed to imply that she meant using Sam's mind control powers. And really, who knows what she meant, it could have been anything.
I think that in the last episode Sam will kill Lilith and then we'll see Ruby turn around and begin to break the final seal. And that is where Dean will come in. And the real trouble will start.
Just think how many times he tried to kill Ruby. So many times since the third season he's gotten so close and Sam stopped him again and again. If I'm right and Ruby is the real danger, then holy shit are those boys in trouble. She knows every weakness they have, Sam is wrapped tight around her finger and I shudder to think what's going to happen next week. I honestly don't know how I will be able to handle it without someone they are to support me. Oh fangirls why do you live so far away!
The only silver lining I can see is that maybe when Ruby shows her true colors Sam and Dean will be able to reunite, if only to take her out. I'm not in any way thinking that they would be okay but maybe they would be able to start to rebuild their relationship.
I haven't looked at any spoilers, I have no idea how the season will end. So I could either be right on with these predictions or I could be completely off-base. But if I am right, it will be because I am SMARTER THAN KRIPKE. \o/ And that's pretty cool. ;D But I don't appreciate what Kripke is doing to our boys. In fact I hate what Kripke has done to our boys.
I don't even know how I can enjoy this season so much and loathe it so much all at the same time. It hurts a lot right now, not in the good way.
Damn you Kripke!
I have a lot of speculation under the cut, so don't look if you think I'm good at guessing the ending? LOL. No actual spoilers I suppose.