Jan 16, 2008 19:28
I don't bother with resolutions, but I thought this year, I'll be different. The problem with resolutions that people tend to choose negative goals ("I will not eat poorly anymore") instead of positive ones ("I will learn how to cook"). Negative resolutions are putting energy into holding something back, which means the river comes rushing back the moment their energy ebbs, while positive ones build their own momentum and allow them to do more things with less energy.
My resolution is to be more outspoken this year, which could also be phrased in the typical "I will not hold things inside and let them eat away at me in silence".
Since I'm more practiced with holding things in, it does not come naturally to me and such takes me notable effort to do. I'm sure anyone who is loud and loquacious out there is baffled by the idea that speaking your mind could take such effort. I will point out that the more someone speaks, the less they notice. It is this cloud of details that will take effort to push out of my thoughts in order to turn my own thoughts into actions over the roaring of other's actions, feelings as well as the material surroundings itself.
If being more outspoken causes people to avoid or abandon me, then at least I will not have to fear that any longer and will have freed up emotions for more productive passions.