Angry Rant and Fangirling
I am really pissed off at someone right now. If you'd like to read about it, click below. ;)
There are only a few things that make me angry with a friend. It really takes a lot. But the easiest way to piss me off is to be a complete passive-aggressive dick to me or to someone I care about. And someone here was exactly that yesterday, and I hate it because I can't fight back against passive-aggressive behavior. I detest it when someone makes me feel like shit in the guise of being my friend, or being helpful, or being worried about something.
WHY does he feel like every interaction with me is a chance to reinforce his supposed position? I've never seen him as someone better than me, or as someone below me. Maybe that's why he seems to try to put me down all the time. It's gotten so bad that Jon, who isn't around this guy much, has seen it and commented on it. The worst part is I don't know how to go up to him and explain why I'm hurt and angry. Nothing he says is ever mean in itself, because he always has a "good reason" to say it. But the reality is that, except in his own, fanciful little world, they aren't good reasons at all. They're terrible reasons, because they spring from imagined insults and problems.
I suggest hanging out sometime with people, and his response is "We hung out this weekend" in this "you clueless hag" voice. Yeah, we did. If you can call it that, standing around drinking and dancing and NEVER TALKING TO EACH OTHER! We hung out, if hanging out is ignoring me and my boyfriend after the bare minimum of a response to an attempt at conversation! Turning your back on us after saying two words. And it isn't just me who gets that treatment. It's not because Jon is there, I get it when he isn't there. Other "good friends" get the same response. I don't get it.
From now on, I'm treating him like an aquaintance. I don't know what else to do. I'm just going to not expect friendship from him, and then I won't be hurt when I don't get it. And if he suggests what he suggested yesterday to me again, I'm turning him down. Because I'm not going to do "what's good for everyone" when reality is, it isn't. It isn't because he doesn't have the power to do that, and it isn't because it wouldn't work out anyway, and it isn't because I got that position and I'm doing a good job with it.
So...Fuck. OFF.
If you know who this person is, please don't tell him about this. It'd only make things worse. He doesn't read my LJ, and I'm trying to keep the person anonymous, but if you've figured it out, come talk to me about it, not to him. Or talk to him, but don't tell him about this, please.
On a completely different topic, Gilmore Girls was awesome tonight. I taped it while I was at rehearsal, and I got to watch it without commercials, which is, in my opinion, the only way to go. Jess is back, and he's much more likeable than he used to be, especially since he was the one who finally slapped some sense back into Rory. Not to mention I hate Logan and his crap attitude. Logan has the same things I disliked in Jess in the past, but he's older and should have grown out of at least some of it by now, which Jess seems to have done. And Rory told off her grandmother! Yay! I can't wait til next week.
There are only a few things that make me angry with a friend. It really takes a lot. But the easiest way to piss me off is to be a complete passive-aggressive dick to me or to someone I care about. And someone here was exactly that yesterday, and I hate it because I can't fight back against passive-aggressive behavior. I detest it when someone makes me feel like shit in the guise of being my friend, or being helpful, or being worried about something.
WHY does he feel like every interaction with me is a chance to reinforce his supposed position? I've never seen him as someone better than me, or as someone below me. Maybe that's why he seems to try to put me down all the time. It's gotten so bad that Jon, who isn't around this guy much, has seen it and commented on it. The worst part is I don't know how to go up to him and explain why I'm hurt and angry. Nothing he says is ever mean in itself, because he always has a "good reason" to say it. But the reality is that, except in his own, fanciful little world, they aren't good reasons at all. They're terrible reasons, because they spring from imagined insults and problems.
I suggest hanging out sometime with people, and his response is "We hung out this weekend" in this "you clueless hag" voice. Yeah, we did. If you can call it that, standing around drinking and dancing and NEVER TALKING TO EACH OTHER! We hung out, if hanging out is ignoring me and my boyfriend after the bare minimum of a response to an attempt at conversation! Turning your back on us after saying two words. And it isn't just me who gets that treatment. It's not because Jon is there, I get it when he isn't there. Other "good friends" get the same response. I don't get it.
From now on, I'm treating him like an aquaintance. I don't know what else to do. I'm just going to not expect friendship from him, and then I won't be hurt when I don't get it. And if he suggests what he suggested yesterday to me again, I'm turning him down. Because I'm not going to do "what's good for everyone" when reality is, it isn't. It isn't because he doesn't have the power to do that, and it isn't because it wouldn't work out anyway, and it isn't because I got that position and I'm doing a good job with it.
So...Fuck. OFF.
If you know who this person is, please don't tell him about this. It'd only make things worse. He doesn't read my LJ, and I'm trying to keep the person anonymous, but if you've figured it out, come talk to me about it, not to him. Or talk to him, but don't tell him about this, please.
On a completely different topic, Gilmore Girls was awesome tonight. I taped it while I was at rehearsal, and I got to watch it without commercials, which is, in my opinion, the only way to go. Jess is back, and he's much more likeable than he used to be, especially since he was the one who finally slapped some sense back into Rory. Not to mention I hate Logan and his crap attitude. Logan has the same things I disliked in Jess in the past, but he's older and should have grown out of at least some of it by now, which Jess seems to have done. And Rory told off her grandmother! Yay! I can't wait til next week.