it's not going to work.

and this is never going to get better.

why is everything falling apart. what did i do wrong. how do i fix it.

tell me. please? someone?

no. no nonono. not the flashbacks again. not that too. seeing things and hearing things that apparently aren't there is enough. the paranoia is enough. it's enough. no flashbacks.

no.
nonono.

fucking NO fuck you.

wooahhh.

my fingers are cold.

comment on that, bitches.

edit: colour change. see, my writing is purpley. because i'm in touch with my girly side *bats eyelashes* maybe a little too much... *scratches off nailpolish*

you love it.

editedit: now it's orangey

you ask what's wrong and i wish i could just spill my guts but i can't. i can't even explain.

lonely is the room, the bed is made, the open window lets the rain in ( Read more... )

i need to call someone but.. i.. have no one to call.

mm i got my report thingy back. i'm so all over the fucking place. only one D though.. whereas last year it was just D D D D D D D D D D D D. this year its all A+ A+ A+ C C B+ A B D B+ A+ A+ etc.

i can do better.

i'm getting that aweful feeling in my chest(heart) and stomach(gut). when you're really nervous, or extremely fucking worried, or just feeling really fucking sad and trapped. that helpless doomed feeling. where you think you may as well just fucking die and it'd be heaven compared to what you're living. like you know there's no point and you're not ( Read more... )

i'm sleepy.

(that's good)

everything sucks.

i have snot in the back of my throat, it's disgusting. i want to vomit.

( angels brought me here )