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quinara

Fic: 'I love you' is a thing you say to people who are dying (9/16); hard R

Aug 07, 2015 20:57

[start of fic and notes]

'I love you' is a thing you say to people who are dying
by Quinara

Season 7. Buffy/Spike. Some Watchers survived, because sometimes people do.

[breakfasts III]

( breakfasts IV )

ily is a thing, fic

Comments 7

the_moonmoth August 17 2015, 12:54:15 UTC

His want for her - the want he’d been so afraid of - it hadn’t killed her. It wasn’t in him to destroy her, and she’d known it, she really thought she’d known it - but now the truth was here for everyone to see.

Such an important realisation, even if that's not how the others take it.

Buffy shut her eyes. It wasn’t something she’d ever wanted Dawn to know, how many things in her life there were that were worse than bleeding.

Ugh, my babies :( very good Buffy voice.

The thing was, she was scared for him. They were in a war, but it almost didn’t seem to matter that everything in her wanted them both to survive, because time and time again, this time not least, it felt like she was the only one fighting.

And again. This is exactly her in S7.

quinara August 19 2015, 17:36:59 UTC

I'm so glad you like Buffy here - I love her character in S7, but I also think she has gone a bit weird, so it's possible she's lying to herself throughout this whole episode - but then I'm also not sure she is, really. (Yes, I am conflicted about my own characterisation...) And I'll say it again that you are so sweet for leaving so many comments - thanks!

the_moonmoth August 19 2015, 18:04:33 UTC

Giiiiiiirl, writing of this quality deserves all the love <3 <3 <3 And you could've posted it one chapter a week to get more comments, but you didn't, and I appreciate that on many levels :)

quinara August 19 2015, 18:51:12 UTC

Would that I could! This is a reply to one of your other comments as well, really, about how I could be in the headspace to produce more stuff after posting, but the basic fact is that I obsess and obsess and obsess. Once the grip of finishing something comes on me, WOE BETIDE the world that tries to get in the way. I always do my final edits in the posting window, but once I start on that process I get into this mindset of tinkering, and it's very hard to switch off until it's all done. And even then I keep bothering myself about it until it's finished (to my satisfaction, of course, which is how you managed to catch me, because I wasn't yet satisfied but had given in). I've never been any good at posting while I write, because I go back and change so much in random places as things develop, so I've sort of come to accept that I will always post things in the most socially awkward way possible, and then people may or may not read them eventually ( ... )

Thread 5

shapinglight August 19 2015, 16:15:52 UTC

God, they're both so damaged (and I don't just mean by each other). I feel so, so sorry for both of them.

quinara August 19 2015, 17:39:37 UTC

Aren't they just? I say in the comment above this that I think Buffy has gone a bit weird in S7, and I love her character for it, but I also find it a little mind-blowing sometimes to try and figure out a realistic understanding of just where her head would be at after seven years of all this stuff. And Spike is his own kettle of fish as well!