I don't really understand the whole situation, but I do I have hugs for you *HUGS* Just take your time, sweetie. There's no rush for you to have to change anything at all.
probably TMI. sorry!quirkiesJuly 31 2010, 16:00:46 UTC
Thank you! It's important to come home to a hug. &hearts I didn't mean to be cryptic, I guess I don't have much practice talking to or about my family in a straight-forward way.*eye roll* I'm just remembering and re-experiencing how hurt and disappointed I was years ago when I finally spoke up about being molested by my step-mom's son (years after the fact) and was met with defensive incredulity from her. And even hearing her admit that he was messed up just dredges crap up that I don't want to see. One of the ugly truths about me is that I'm way better at forgetting than forgiving. I want to not resent her and hate all those negative feelings. *deep breath* I should accept them though. Not judge them. I'm just so damn good at repressing it's a shame not to use those skills. You know?
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I didn't mean to be cryptic, I guess I don't have much practice talking to or about my family in a straight-forward way.*eye roll*
I'm just remembering and re-experiencing how hurt and disappointed I was years ago when I finally spoke up about being molested by my step-mom's son (years after the fact) and was met with defensive incredulity from her. And even hearing her admit that he was messed up just dredges crap up that I don't want to see.
One of the ugly truths about me is that I'm way better at forgetting than forgiving. I want to not resent her and hate all those negative feelings. *deep breath* I should accept them though. Not judge them. I'm just so damn good at repressing it's a shame not to use those skills. You know?
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