So what do you do when your so drawn away from any form of emotion or expression, when your as cold as ice and youve hurt everyone else around you...and the only one left to hurt is yourself? When your just waiting for the end and nothing gets you anymore, when you feel like your beyond all help, like every moment that passes by is just a simple ( Read more... )

yo yo
I voted today! Go Bush!
we will know tomorrow, if all goes right.

Going to see SAW again with nate tonight. It will be grand. the movie rox!
Have no worries nate, it will be rad.

thats all folks!

~Al

nothing that makes me believe that I'm not alone ( Read more... )

My mom and I got into a fight last night on my birthday...a really really bad one...it went on for hours and hours...i hardly slept at all.  But what Im writting about isnt that...or that exactly.  She knows now...she found out about my cutting.  She was in complete shock at first and didnt know what to think or do.  She says I need help and that ( Read more... )

I fear my time is coming to an end.

Yes, I feel this way once again.

Its happening all over

back to start i go.

Im so tired

Im so dead

My body is getting weaker

and so is my promisse

I didnt know it would be this hard

I didnt know it would tak this much.

I just want to die

not just sometimes but nearly all the time...

Not really sure ( Read more... )

INCUBUS IS COMMING!!!! WOW I COULD SHIT MY PANTS IM SO EXCITED! I'M GOING TO SEE INCUBUS, I'M GOING TO SEE INCUBUS, I'M GOING TO SEE INCUBUS, I'M GOING TO SEE INCUBUS, I'M GOING TO SEE INCUBUS, I'M GOING TO SEE INCUBUS, I'M GOING TO SEE INCUBUS, I'M GOING TO SEE INCUBUS, I'M GOING TO SEE INCUBUS, I'M GOING TO SEE INCUBUS, I'M GOING TO SEE INCUBUS, ( Read more... )

Well, I guess I'm doing alright these days ( Read more... )

I tried so hard, I really did.  I wanted to stop, I tried to fight it.  But I just couldn't do it anymore.  I feel apart last night.  I felt so trapped, and like I couldn't even breath.  So I did it...and I'm sorry, I know I promissed, and I tried I really did, I jsut couldn't fight it anymore.  I was so mad at myself and frustrated with everything ( Read more... )

My Josh is leaving for school in a few days now and oh how im going to miss him so ( Read more... )

So I had a fortien cookie today and this is what is read...

YOUR BODY IS FOR USE; NOT ABUSE.

Weird...

~Al