I hate my dad i really do. i dont think he has ever said he loved me in his entire life. he's such a loser he's 40 years old and still lives with his mom and his 19 year old fiance, poor girl i hope she knows what shes getting into. maybe atleast he'll treat her better than he treated my f'ing mom. so i went over there last weekend and she took a ( Read more... )

school sucked. we left after 5th hour and went to trenton to pick up matt from school then i dropped josh and rachel off went home then went to see if rachel was home and she wasnt so i seen donny and we basically stalked both of there houses lol anway i dropped him off on the side of the road then i went to flatrock and hung out with josh and ( Read more... )

So this post is going to be about sara and rachel. i love those girls i really do, they are pretty much my bestfriends. they are the funnest girls i know. who else would fuck up someones car while the person is watching with me? hah they are always here for me no matter what is going on. i love you rachel and sara hanlon ( Read more... )

haha today we followed james to the mall and we dumped some car cleaner shit all over it and pop and i stuck a puppet on his antenna, haha they seen us and started running after us they throew pop at us and we jumped in saras car all 4 of them jumped on her car and broke off her antenna, so now theres no stations. haha ( Read more... )

so yesterday was fun, rachel and i went to flatrock to hang out with josh and kevin:) we went to kevins huge house full of wicker ha, then to josh's and to the park. i kinda feel bad that they didnt get to go see mcs bleh..sorry guys ( Read more... )

family get togethers suck. they make me feel like shit. oh well i don't have to attend another one until the worst holiday of the year fat day aka "thanksgiving ( Read more... )

my apologies for the whineing. i get too caught up in moments. scratch everything i said. i am as lame as they come.... HOLLA.
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i wonder if i'll ever find "love" it seems to me like everyone around me is finding it but me. it makes me feel so unpretty i hate the lonley feeling. and i hate being sad, i love being happy. but how can i be happy? i have nothing. i just want someone to make me feel pretty. to make me feel loved. i hate feeling like this. i hate have f'ing pitty ( Read more... )

carmela moved out. it's sad, real empty and quiet here without her. i don't have anyone to talk to. i'm going to miss her coming home everyday and telling me about her day she always cheered me up. she was my sister. now shes gone. she needs to work things out with her mom, she has a family she needs to be with them. i love you carm. <3 ( Read more... )

so i'm grounded. sunday after scalaci's i got pulled over got 4 tickets. how sweet is that! yeah so i'm working tonight and tomarrow night so sunday night i'm going to demf with sara it should be fun. ahhh i got a crush! heh!
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