Only one more day of running follow spot. two more shows. then changeover. i'm on carps this time (thank god) and am really looking forward to ripping this set to shreds. this show only had a run of two weeks and i'm already sick of it. i can't imagine running a show for months and months. hence why i'm going to design. i'd be there for tech ( Read more... )

so i think i did something stupid last night. and possibly damaged a budding friendship.

whoa. ok. i mean wow. i don't even know where to begin. i'm deep in lust again. but when am i not? but this time it's stronger than the little crushes i'v had recently. i got that tingly feeling when she touched me that i haven't gotten since emily touched me on the back at the homecoming game freshman year. that warm shimmering lightning ( Read more... )

why am i up at three in the morning when i have to be up at 8, you ask? i just spent the past two hours taking care of a friend who had a bit too much to drink. and by a bit i mean probably 4 shots too much. so we spent some quality time with the porcelain goddess until she finally consented to bed. i don't mind though. it was her 21st b-day ( Read more... )

it's been a lazy day today. I did laundry and then nothing but sit around on the couch reading. Not many people have been around today which has been good for me. It's given me time to think instead of just going going going all the time. I'm scaring myself. I feel like I'm living faster than i ever used to. and i don't know how to stop it. ( Read more... )

what an awesome day. the best i've had since i've been here. work was great because i went to paints for the first time today. that was a blast. i haven't painted in so long and i actually did well. and tonight like 15 of us went to the gay bar that's an hour away. it was 80's night which equaled crazy costumes and 80's dancing.

When did I become so dependant on other people to make me happy? I never used to be this way. by that i mean getting down on myself when I don't have anyone to hang out with for a day. balls. i used to be so self sufficient ( Read more... )

a big Fuck You! goes out to a certain girl here. I have never met someone with such a split personality. and it's pissing me off.

Wow. ok, i know i haven't updated in a while. i think it's only been about a week but for me that's a long time. Things are going well here. I don't have any close friends yet as some people seem to but that's not unusual for me i suppose. Saturday night was a blast. we got quite drunky drunk and played circle of death and flip cup. and i ( Read more... )

Things are better. slightly. but better.

i need to find someone to give me back massages.