i spend my life
waiting for something
that won't ever come

I am so unhappy in school. Very very unhappy.
sometimes.
Other times I'm fine, I go to class and do decently, but for what?
Why do I have to be here? I hate school.
It was always my parents dream, not mine.

For RachaelI tried real hard to find words to say ( Read more... )

school=good
like any of you care because i am not a good update person and also i have another journal which i write in a lot more
its name is *thinks about lj tag for a brief split second*
xxfallingdownxxthe library fourth floor is a nice place to be, except they look at your like you're a jew in the middle of nazi germany if you laugh at something funny (which ( Read more... )

.i felt like i needed to escape the life i created for myself.
a life that was full of rose-colored glasses and rainbows and all things nice
..so i stopped that life and moved on to something i could relate to..
i can relate to myself now
...xxfallingdownxx...
because sometimes you have to fall down to understand that where you were was better than where you're ( Read more... )

you know what hurts the most?
feeling shut out
i used to be in, and now that i'm not i feel jealous.
jealous of the way you write and i can't read it, i just sorta have to guess.
you begged me for insight to my life, and then you slam the door in my face.
fuck you.
both of you.

sometimes it feels like
i'm forgotten already
you remember me, dont you?

why do i feel like i'm bothering everyone?
i can't do anything right.
yes i'm crying
but its not like anyone cares anyway
yes i'm feeling sorry for myself
someone has to

I got accepted to the University of Central Florida.
I start in June.
To say that I'm nervous would be a huge understatement.

"Remember me? Feels like forever since the days we were friends ( Read more... )

this is my last post and then i will delete this forever ( Read more... )

This is a friends only journal.
If you want to read it, comment and I'll add you.
I promise you its not boring interesting.
Sometimes its boring, but such is life.
Leave a comment and I'll check our your journal and may or may not add you.
Right, so yeah. Bye