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So, we've been talking in Abnormal Pyschology about mood disorders. I've been mostly nodding off in that class, until we got to the part about Overgeneralization and Internal Association. They sound a lot like what I've just recently recognized in myself and what I've been trying to deal with for the better part of a decade now. Basically, Overgeneralization is when you believe that everything happens because of you (for instance, thinking that the person who was going to sit next to you in class doesn't because of something you did, or somebody that you eat with regularly doesn't show and it's your fault), even if there's no logical reasoning behind thinking that. This is the kind of thought process that flashes through my brain when something happens, even if it's somebody that I've never even met before. Internal Association works kind of the same way, only on a much more personal scale: thinking that everything bad that happens in my life and in the lives of those closest to me is my fault. I think this has something to do with thinking that it's easier to handle if it's my fault versus something that I can't control. On the other hand, all that guilt piles up, and I go nuts every now and again. Tracy once told me that I'm a egotist with an inferiority complex, and I guess that if I think that everything happens because of me, and yet I'm worse than everybody, she's right. Methinks it's time to look into some therapy options.
No, this isn't a cry for help, or a stupid emo rant. I'm actually in a very good mood right now. I'm just trying to put into words what's going on in my head, so that I can understand it a bit better. This was read at your own discretion.
No, this isn't a cry for help, or a stupid emo rant. I'm actually in a very good mood right now. I'm just trying to put into words what's going on in my head, so that I can understand it a bit better. This was read at your own discretion.