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It's about that time of year again. The two year anniversary of the worst day of my life. I just hope I make it through with the least amount of damage possible. It has gotten to the point of me crying almost daily. Just missing her. I never thought I could miss someone as much as I miss her. My heart breaks. I don't think it'll ever be whole ( Read more... ) -
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Well. The holidays are coming around again, like they do every year. I hope this year is going to go much smoother than the year before. But all in all this year has been like... awe full. I don't even really want to think about this. But I should, so I can get comfortable with the consequences of them ( Read more... ) -
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After Jeremy's graduation day I had a break down, I cried like a small child for 'bout 10 minutes (a record) just missing my mother. It's been only 2 months and I feel like I am doing alright with the hand I have been delt. I mean I do have roller coaster emotions, but those have been minimal at best. Mothers day was a hit or miss for a while. But ( Read more... ) -
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Well mom is worse she is in hospice and the end is near finally. I will be glad when she's gone because she is really miserable. I still can't bring myself to understand what shell be missing from my life kids wedding etc. Sometimes I want to blame Jeremy for this but I can't because his reasoning for waiting is valid and understandable. I ( Read more... ) -
It's been a while.
It has been a while since I graced this lj with my thoughts and dreams and ideas ( Read more... ) -
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Mom has been back from the hospital for a few weeks now. She has been doing well at home. So far so good. I suppose. I just can't wait for all of this to be over.
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Today has been really hard. All I want to do is call mom and pick her brain, but it's not there, it's like she is in purgatory and seemingly never come home ( Read more... ) -
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I miss the mother I had before she got sick. Dealing with Cancer is more than losing hair, weight, but watching your loved one just...waste away. I realized this, today when I was folding my laundry. I needed my mom to help me with ideas for Relay for life, but I can't because she isn't all there because of her healing process. It's like my mom ( Read more... ) -
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"I have no idea which is worse, going through your parent/revaltive dying from cancer OR watching your friends family die ( Read more... )