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[rachelwaits]

i have given myself the night off. no friends. no homework. no plans or obligations. i have finally reached critical mass. i simply cannot go on like i have been all semester, so busy i can barely sleep and not enjoying anything

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[sherbitter]

Lots in this post. All I'm going to comment on, though, is the "if I'm not mistaken, that's a weird reaction" bit. It's definitely NOT a weird reaction; at least, it's not uncommon (which would be the definition of "weird"). Of course I don't believe the world's coming to an end on that particular date, but I've had TONS of those, "there is so much to DO before it's all over with" moments and everyone I've talked with about it has, too. Alex is ALWAYS lying awake at night, worrying that he's not going to accomplish...something. It's always this undefined, amorphous massive "THING" but he can really get worked up about it (he doesn't cry because he doesn't cry -- he does his version of it, though). It's tough to be confronted with mortality and to realize that almost none of us make a very big difference in the long run. So, no, it wasn't weird