funny how love shows up...when you least expect it.

Wow. Just wow. Wait, not just wow, more like OUCH!

So I am living alone in a tiny apartment downtown. Roni and I are going to a couples therapist....sigh ( Read more... )

So I have single handedly pulled the world down around me. Made some not so cool decisions and caused some serious heartache to more than one person. I suppose I now have a little better understanding of what we can do when we are sick....what others have done to me, because they were sick. Makes me less angry and resentful, and more sad for the ( Read more... )

this month is a no go. I reacted well, too well to the clomid, and hyperstimulated my left ovary. I now have a good sized cyst that has to resolve before we continue....

I have an ultrasound at 10 today...day 4 of my cycle...soooooo..since my cycle was only 25 days....I am supposed to be inseminated on day 11.... hmm that means in 7 days.. which is........my bday....

what a gift....

the last time I stood in the eye of my own pain and shit storm like this. Yeah I can remember.....
the wounds remember where to bleed... they haven't forgotten.

so I was supposed to get my bloodwork done on the 12th... it was planned that day so that it would be done when i was supposed to be ovulating, however the fact that aunt flo came and kicked me in the hooha something fierce last nite, means i missed my window of time to get that specific blood work done.. dammit..this also means this last cycle was ( Read more... )

have been turned inside out.

suck.