At this time. I feel like my feelings for her are leaving. I mean its like everything else that doesnt get a little TLC. IT either falls apart, fades, or just doesnt fit anymore. It's sad tho to me, becuz I want to love her, and be in love with her. Wake up next to her, all that jazzz...its worse becuz she feels the same with me. BUT. I deno....Im ( Read more... )

Bellingham is boring. I find another reason everyday to want to leave. I can't leave though becuz this is home. I feel like Im in limbo. Well, I guess its cool that Rochelle and I are talking again, all though I'm syre it just has something to do with the fact that her and Nikki are fighting. I hate my roomate. I really dislike what she's done. I ( Read more... )

she said that sadness is surrendering. well i say, i know i lost the game a long time ago, and now i am just making myself suffering, things don't change.

It's way too hott out. This type of weather makes it really hard to look like a babe. Today was a good day over all. Getting new pants, socks, undies, and shirts is always amazing. The party at jordans house last night was just a bundle of fun. I lost my shoes, cellphone, buttons, and my wifey. Chelsea is a fucking rock star. Why the hell am I ( Read more... )

June 10th is the big moving day. What I have wanted, is finally now what I needed. I'm really excited to move to Bellingham, I'm really sad about leaving here too. I don't know what it is ...the people, the places, or maybe it's something else. Whatever it is, I don't know. But my heart feels heavier with each day. Theres so many plus and minuses.. ( Read more... )

metric was amazing

Tao. This fucking anxiety is seriously fucking irritating. So I drink. drink. and wait for the calm that the alcohol brings. I fucking hate everything today. I fucking hate you for not calling. I hate eating too.

This anxiety is frustrating. So, I'll just take it. Breathe. Breathe. Repeat. Remind. Forget. Breathe. Read. Listen. Smile. Miss. Hoping. Holding On ( Read more... )

I think once I collect all the money, I am going to go on a fucking vacation. I am going to go and figure some shit out. You know those parts of your mind that you dont ever touch becuz your to scared of what you might find. I know it has to be a place with a ocean ( Read more... )

I wish I was a stronger person. You know one of the kinds who uses Logic over emotion. Whos heart doesnt get in the way....I just cant find my clarity today. Everything was all planned out, and then bam...nope sorry.

ps.

I suggest if you ever crawl through PJs' window dont wear tight pants.