I just went outside in the darkness and played in the rain. There is something so significant and perfect I find in playing in the rain...and in letting the droplets roll over my body and cleanses me...it cleanses me inside, i can feel it ( Read more... )

Wow...i haven't written in this thing in a long time...so much has happened since then. i am such a different person, yet still so much the same,. Why is everything a paradox with me? lol ( Read more... )

I am falling apart ( Read more... )

My life has turned into running mush down a very deep ongoing drain ( Read more... )

im a piece of shit.
i alwayz will be.

nothing is better.
one by one.
soon i will have no friendz left.

Jail again really? I keep thinking i could have done something to stop you. Gahh. What were you thinking ( Read more... )

I dont think I could be in anymore pain right now ( Read more... )

i have come to the conclusion that i am crazy.
but you know what....i dont give a fuck.

in case anyone is wondering...i am doing horrible.
but i am trying to lok on the bright side of things.
i just had to get that out...

where are the people i have called my friends before?

i really love steven shew ( Read more... )

Honestly, right now i wish i were dead. I'm drunk, and I might have testing in the morning. Do I care? Of course i do. I am so sad right now...I feel as though I could honestly drown in my sorrow...truely ( Read more... )