two-thousand & fucking four.
cut my wrists & black my eyes,
so i can fall asleep tonight.
it's 9am on a monday morning & i'm sitting here reflecting on a year that may or may not be of any importance at all. the only exciting thing i can remember about this year is finding out that lindsey lohan's tits are fake, & that doesn't even have anything to do with my life.
2004 was full of loss, drama, & anger. that's about all i remember. but i guess i can blame over half of that on turning 16. this was also a year that i discovered how much i enjoy alcohol, but also how quickly it can turn into your worst enemy. i made bad decisions, did stupid shit, got fucked up a lot, dropped out of school, & ruined perfect relationships. this year has taught me how big of a monster i really am. i've made changes, sacrafices, experimented, & done a whole mess of illegal bullshit.
all in all it was just another year down the drain. i met a lot of new people though & ruined a few reputations.
i guess i can say i'd give anything to turn the clock around back to march & hold on tighter to friendships that way i could have came out of this year with my head up & a smile on my face. instead i'm comming out with 3 best friends who i adore & who were standing next to me at the beginning of the year as well. my grip has losened on several friendships & i'd like to strengthen it again.
i'd also like to say thank you to Sheila for making everything alittle bit easier. driving around doing nothing but still having the most fun i've ever had. getting drunk in florida & hitting my head on a vaccum cleaner while your dad's yelling "ARE YOU GUYS ON DRUGS" at us & laughing so hard that we fall off the bed. i'm so thankful to have you as a friend because no matter whats going on in your life, you're always there making sure that i'm okay. i owe you a lot & i'm going to make it up to you some day. our 18 year mark has a strip club with our names on it. i love you, & thank you for everything that you've done. hopefully there's manyyyy more years ahead for us like this one. except without the hassle of stupid boys.
also, Alex. you never fail to amaze me. you can bring a smile to my face no matter what. thank you for everything that you've done & everything that you've taught me. thanks for holding my hand & brushing away the tears. i can't even begin to tell you how much everything you've done, & everything we've been through together means.
Josh, i've learned a lot from you. we've had a lot of good times together & hopefully that isn't over with. somethings i think about just dropping every plan i've ever had & comming back to school just so i can sit in math class with you & draw perverted stuff in notes, make stupid comments, & then laugh away every trouble. there's so much more i want to say but maybe it would be better if i said it to you. thanks for all you've done, & thanks for being there for me.
so i can fall asleep tonight.
it's 9am on a monday morning & i'm sitting here reflecting on a year that may or may not be of any importance at all. the only exciting thing i can remember about this year is finding out that lindsey lohan's tits are fake, & that doesn't even have anything to do with my life.
2004 was full of loss, drama, & anger. that's about all i remember. but i guess i can blame over half of that on turning 16. this was also a year that i discovered how much i enjoy alcohol, but also how quickly it can turn into your worst enemy. i made bad decisions, did stupid shit, got fucked up a lot, dropped out of school, & ruined perfect relationships. this year has taught me how big of a monster i really am. i've made changes, sacrafices, experimented, & done a whole mess of illegal bullshit.
all in all it was just another year down the drain. i met a lot of new people though & ruined a few reputations.
i guess i can say i'd give anything to turn the clock around back to march & hold on tighter to friendships that way i could have came out of this year with my head up & a smile on my face. instead i'm comming out with 3 best friends who i adore & who were standing next to me at the beginning of the year as well. my grip has losened on several friendships & i'd like to strengthen it again.
i'd also like to say thank you to Sheila for making everything alittle bit easier. driving around doing nothing but still having the most fun i've ever had. getting drunk in florida & hitting my head on a vaccum cleaner while your dad's yelling "ARE YOU GUYS ON DRUGS" at us & laughing so hard that we fall off the bed. i'm so thankful to have you as a friend because no matter whats going on in your life, you're always there making sure that i'm okay. i owe you a lot & i'm going to make it up to you some day. our 18 year mark has a strip club with our names on it. i love you, & thank you for everything that you've done. hopefully there's manyyyy more years ahead for us like this one. except without the hassle of stupid boys.
also, Alex. you never fail to amaze me. you can bring a smile to my face no matter what. thank you for everything that you've done & everything that you've taught me. thanks for holding my hand & brushing away the tears. i can't even begin to tell you how much everything you've done, & everything we've been through together means.
Josh, i've learned a lot from you. we've had a lot of good times together & hopefully that isn't over with. somethings i think about just dropping every plan i've ever had & comming back to school just so i can sit in math class with you & draw perverted stuff in notes, make stupid comments, & then laugh away every trouble. there's so much more i want to say but maybe it would be better if i said it to you. thanks for all you've done, & thanks for being there for me.