and i think to myself "what is this life?"

[radiocain]

it's really strange, and i kind of began to allude to this in my last attempt at an entry, but when i'm here (at nyu, or in new york in general) i often feel as though something changes in myself, that i become a person that i perhaps have always wanted to be: someone without inhibitions, someone who cares little about the judgment passed on them

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[communitylife]

stephanie, you know we read this, so i figure it's kind of ridiculous not to respond. i love you. i care about you a lot, but i'm just confused, kind of, by this so-called new york stephanie. like, i don't even think it goes to a respect issue, because first and foremost i worry about you. sometimes there's a quote on your profile that says someone isn't worried about you because you always take care of your business. well, i worry about you because you're so hardcore that you can take care of your business and still party it up. real college (non-liberal arts) experiences don't have to be beer pong. i mean, if you want it to be, fine. really, it's just that it's not very safe and healthy, and leave it to me to be concerned about safety and health. i think it's okay for us to have very different lives now than we did at governor's school. it doesn't necessarily negate who we were or our friendships now, it just makes them different. maybe i'm wrong. maybe it does mark a shift or break, and personally i would be a little creeped out by

right there with you

[barclay223]

Hey, I know exactly where you are in your head. I am not the same in New York that I am when I am at home. There is a sort of cockiness, an attitude that inhabits me when I am here that I think is a necessity in order to just survive here. And it's very weird that it kind of goes away when I leave, and no one knows about it outside of New York. Anyway. You don't have anything to worry about. I mean, who really knows what we're supposed to be doing, or who has anything figured out? Not Carrie Bradshaw, definitely not me, apparently not you. But that's what living is for. In the meantime let's listen to Celine Dion and say "SO GOOD!" Woot.