we need to talk

but before we do, let's do
lots
and
lots

of kissing.

just a little advice ( Read more... )

i didn't know johnnie cochran died.

dear boy
i don't know the whole story
but could you PLEASE quit upsetting my friend?
she's a great girl
please

she's crying herself to sleep again as i write this and it makes my heart hurt

i can promise you
that by the time
that we get through
the world will never
ever be the same
and you're to blame.

just cried for an hour or so.
crying does nothing.
nothing is solved and my cheeks are wet.

he says he doesn't mind talking about it. and i really want to talk about it. but i can't. i've built a wall between myself and it. to me it never happened. i think about it and it seems i wasn't even there, that it wasn't me. because it wasnt me who made that decision. it was someone else and i don't know what she was thinking.

i pity myself.
i cause so much drama over the little things. i'm sick of it.
i really don't have it so hard. especially when i think of some of my friends.
i put myself in their shoes and finally saw, really saw what it means to have it hard.

i can't imagine being in a relationship for three years where i'm beaten by a boy who loves me. she's ( Read more... )

i made another new livejournal.
first entry, woo