Health and Pride
My procedure went well today. The c-word was not in the conversation, and I have to learn to live with diviberticulosis. Along with diabetes, the heart/lung EF, double bypass and neuropathy, it should not be difficult.
Because of the colonoscopy I ate nothing from Sunday afternoon until Tuesday afternoon, and except for the force drinking of the "prep" had nothing to drink for 13 hours. Which made me crabby.
I also got no sleep Monday night/tuesday morning, came home and screwed up my schedule by sleeping from 11A to 11P with some breaks in dreaming.
But I should have stayed down.
I insisted on doing several things; outlining a new project, cleaning up some others.
But I made a bad decision. I kept running into finder.dat files from my old OS9 system archives, and decided to remove them in bulk. And rendered my computer worthless. I could not restart it and am sure that I destroyed a FINDER.DAT that was NOT part of my OS9.
I should have waited until I investigated the individual files.
Fortunately, recently I downloaded a Bootable Utilities Disk from the OSX system usegroup. And it worked. I was able to boot from the DVD and run a utility that rebuilt the desktop and restored my computer.
But I was tired, knew I wasn't up to par but insisted on DOING.
I am frequently accused of being a Human Doing, instead of a Human Being.
Still, after all this time, and with meditation and constance reminders of the simplicity possible, I return to a Human Doing.
And I am always happier when I am a simple Human Being.
Guilty as charged. And maybe, some time before I die, I'll get it right.
Because of the colonoscopy I ate nothing from Sunday afternoon until Tuesday afternoon, and except for the force drinking of the "prep" had nothing to drink for 13 hours. Which made me crabby.
I also got no sleep Monday night/tuesday morning, came home and screwed up my schedule by sleeping from 11A to 11P with some breaks in dreaming.
But I should have stayed down.
I insisted on doing several things; outlining a new project, cleaning up some others.
But I made a bad decision. I kept running into finder.dat files from my old OS9 system archives, and decided to remove them in bulk. And rendered my computer worthless. I could not restart it and am sure that I destroyed a FINDER.DAT that was NOT part of my OS9.
I should have waited until I investigated the individual files.
Fortunately, recently I downloaded a Bootable Utilities Disk from the OSX system usegroup. And it worked. I was able to boot from the DVD and run a utility that rebuilt the desktop and restored my computer.
But I was tired, knew I wasn't up to par but insisted on DOING.
I am frequently accused of being a Human Doing, instead of a Human Being.
Still, after all this time, and with meditation and constance reminders of the simplicity possible, I return to a Human Doing.
And I am always happier when I am a simple Human Being.
Guilty as charged. And maybe, some time before I die, I'll get it right.