studpidity and lies

[radiosity]

I'm guessing this is the long slide out... I don't have the inclination to share much here except when I'm feeling pretty dismal. And that's no fun. Certainly no fun at all.

I'm fed up with being disappointed and wondering if it's all my fault.

It's just all so unbearably fucking boring.

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Look Shiney!

[elbowfetish]

The Film Festival Midnight Madness lineup is out...
and so much to do in the mean time!

Re: Look Shiney!

[radiosity]

It's true... that's what I mean. I'm pretty sure it all boils down to a broken synapse or something. Or maybe it's an axon or a dendrite or a whatever. Something I broke in my brain. Or maybe it was always broken! yeah... here's to blame!

Installs Wordpress. Wonders why.

But thanks for responding and restoring my faith in the Internet as the medium that will save us all just in time for us to destroy ourselves ;P

[asylumleadtripr]

As long as you keep doing what makes you feel uncomfortable you'll find a way to fuck that up too and it will end up being the best mistake ever.

At least, that's my philosophy. No offense to you. Best of luck my friend. :)

[radiosity]

That's sort of like a koan...I'm not sure that I can comment on it. Both because I'm still in the process of processing it and also because I'm uncertain of what makes me uncomfortable.

Or rather, the problem "du jour" seems to be that I am VERY comfortable being hopeless, sad, without hope, dismal, disappointed and nihilistic. And while some very well-meaning people have tried to convince me that I am only familiar with those feelings and that my "comfort" is really familiarity - I can tell you, it's a pretty comfortable familiarity. Unlike say, a gall-bladder attack which is ... well almost indescribable pain. Oh, and angry, did I mention the angry?

Thanks for your thoughts - I will continue to contemplate their possible application to my quandary =P

[jungelistchyk]

change the channel.