About my life

[radittz]

I don't know if it's good that I'm writing it here but I;m afraid that I don't have any better place to connect with all my friends that I'm exchanging emails and letters.
First of all, I feel very bad that I'm so slow with answering, I really think about you everyday. It's not like I don't have enough time, I'm just in terrible mood.

Nothing bad

Comments

[fresisui]

*Hugs* It's not late, sweetie. I lived most of my experiences "too late" and it's not a bad thing.

I think you need to change something in your routine like a job (It doesn't matter if is in a shop or something, tell your parents it's for pay your own expenses until you find a better job) or new hobbies.

And about love life... my first sexual experience was with 25, so don't rush yourself because is more common that you think. It's true sometimes we need somebody by our side but in the end it's not that important (I'm 32, single and happy with it. It's true sometimes I miss my ex and all, but I have my friends and my hobbies, I can travel and do silly things for halloween and those little things makes me happy. Variety is the spice of life ;D)

Cheer up and think about positive things in your life, I'm sure you have a lot of them (and sorry for my english, I can't think anymore)

[radittz]

It's a strange coincidence but I was just reading you new entries(with google tranlate of course). I have a small present for your birthday, I'll try to send it tomorrow.

Sexual life is a different topic, I can't even imagine showing my naked body to anyone, I have too big complexes about it lol I can't write that I'm lacking of good friends but sometimes I feel like I shouldn't be such weight for them - I'm terrible uke in my life and need a stronger people around all the time, but on the other hand it must be very fatiguing for them...

Of course my life could be worse, thank God that I'm quite healthy and have my beloved hobbies <3

[fresisui]

My new entries doesn't make sense in spanish :__D is a halloween meme, my friends forced me to write an essay about how awesome is Russia/Lithuania pairing and that I like manly!Poland too much among other things (an inexistent battle in WWII or a russliet badfic). Thanks God I have irony to fight back xDDD And thank you about the present ;___; you don't need to do that, I'm happy enough you remenber my birthday :D *hugs*

And I know complexes are difficult to overcome, but in the end, it's nothing. You are really pretty (talking in spanish standards xD) and you need to work in gain some confidence besides to change your routine to be more confortable and useful to yourself. Everybody needs a change, and it's clear you need something new. Fix that, and your vision about life, friends and yourself will change for better.

Nobody is a burden for their friends, they love you a lot. And you have a lot of people here in internet and we can help with our experiences. It's another way to learn.

[dana_fields]

Oh, honey. ;_; what you're writing here reminds me so much of what my friend was telling me just yesterday - she's 26, single, still works in a café and doesn't know if she'll ever be able to finish college. She thinks she hasn't lived yet, that it's like she hasn't existed because she should be getting married and have a career

[radittz]

Thank you so much for such long comment

[dana_fields]

If you're not ready to make money with your art, then there shouldn't be anything that forces you to! As I said, 25 is still waayyy young enough!

I... wouldn't know about these things, as I'm not an artist (... at all.) but I've heard that a true artist is never truly satisfied with his or her work, eh. So I suppose I do understand why this is hard for you *hug*

Traveling is a good way of finding yourself! It takes a lot of courage, but once you've done it, it's very, very gratifying! I encourage you to do this! I've always wanted to go study or work abroad, but because of a professor who told me it was impossible for me (when it wasn't at the time...) I didn't go, eh. I regret it, I'm even thinking about going to school for longer just to do it... I don't think you need a friend to go, though. There are usually tips and groups you can join to make contact there

[yuuago]

Aw, darlin'. It sounds like you're in a big slump.

I hope tomorrow will be better.

Things are never hopeless as long as you have people to encourage you. But I think you also need to believe in yourself, too.

I wish I could give you a big hug right now.

But still, I'm glad to hear from you. I was actually thinking about PMing you the other day, because I hadn't heard from you in a long time. ;;;

[radittz]

You are one of those few persons that I think about everyday - I'm happy that you also remember about me.

uh, yeah I feel like I really need a hug, but some nice words are also very helpful.

I'll try to send you a normal letter this week. I wanted to do that since April...

[yuuago]

Really? Ahhh that makes me so happy, really!

If I could give you a hug I would. ;3; So there.

Ahh letters, wonderful! Do you have my current address? I moved in August. It is here if you do not have it.

Oh hi, are you me?

[atiko]

Darling. ;__; I'm so sorry you're feeling so bad about this. I probably told you before how I can relate, but what I also wanted to add was, even if I don't know them well, don't worry about disappointing your family too much by not using the skills you learnt at school right away. Your parents are both artists as well, right? If so, they know how tough the market is, and they also know that just as long as you love drawing, your studies were not wasted even if you don't end up working in that field. I realised this when I took on my silly waitress job - I felt sort of lame that after studying all this time, this sort of job was all I can amount to atm... but contrary to me, my parents were like "that's awesome, you'll be fine etc" about it as if it was some super important highly payed job for life

Re: Oh hi, are you me?

[radittz]

uh, I know that you know...

My parents started their work in Soviet times so it was a completely different situation, they had a lot of commissions - esp for movie scenography(that's why they still work in this area) becouse in that period there weren't many artist with a school licence...
I can't say that they are bad parents or they aren't trying to understand my situation but still we are like from two separeted planets >>

I'm happy that you have a new work, isn't that a good opportunity to practice your Japanese?

*hugs*

[starshards]

Marta, no one is worse for being slow to respond than I am. I get messages when I'm at work, and by the time I'm home, I've forgotten. In fact, I'm just remembering now that I need to respond to someone who messaged me two weeks ago

[radittz]

Jess, seriously don't worry about late replies @__@ Usually I'm the one who has a problems with it... Also presents aren't that important.

I know that we don't talk very often but you are my dear friend, even if our contacts are usually limited to the crazy trips - and as I always say - one day spent together is worth of 1000 emails.

What about convention and your Spain cosplay? One of my friends from local fandom was participating in Euro Cosplay(she was second or third).

http://i849.photobucket.com/albums/ab55/anonmemerandoms/DSC09892.jpg <- so you are "normal"? ;)

I'm waiting for an email from you but don't rush and do it when you'll have some time. ILU