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[rae418]

I've had such a good weekend. I'm feeling very optimistic about things, work and otherwise. It's kind of weird, because I've spent so much time fighting off depression in my life that this is kind of new to me. I was reflecting on how proud I am that I am off anti-depressants after 9 or 10 years (seriously!) of needing them, and am doing OK even

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[bellepixie27]

Wow, all I can say is congratulations. I know exactly how shitty it can be to be depressed all the time. And you're right, fighting it off internally is definitely the way to go. The fact that you're overcoming it is amazing, I'm proud of you. I'm glad you're happy.

Good luck with the interview, I'm sure you'll do a great job.

As for Disturbed, that is awesome. My friend won tickets to see them at CBGBs over the summer (in NYC). He said the show was sick. I'm sure you'll have a blast. Who is opening for them, do you know?

Talk to you soon <3

[rae418]

Looks like it is Bloodsimple...I haven't heard them so we'll see. :-)

[anonymous]

I don't know you but I ran across your entry and wanted to say congratulations...you should be proud of yourself. That is a very hard decision to make. I was on anti-depressants for a while after my brother passed away. It was after I stopped taking them that I realized I would always have good and bad days whether or not I was taking medication or not. All the medication did was just kind of numb me. It was truly up to me to view things in a good or a bad light. I don't know about other people but in my experience I have days where I think of my brother or see something that reminds of me him and it makes me smile but then there are those days that I can see the exact same thing and it makes me cry and miss him more than I already do. Anyways, hang in there and good luck.

[rae418]

Hey anonymous,

Thanks for your post. Sounds like what you had was not Major Depression, so it's a little different but I am glad you found a way to hang in there on your own. Sorry about your bro; I recently lost my mom so I can feel ya although I'm sure it's different in some ways.

The thing about me with my depression is that it took away my ability to even *try* to maintain a balance; there was basically no way, no matter how hard I tried, to feel optimistic about anything. So it was a really slow and painful process to get to where I am and it's pretty awesome to be here. Medication did not numb me (although it does that to a lot of people I hear), but basically it kept me from ending my life while I trudged through it...so I am grateful for that at least.

[kinghade]

I'm glad everything is falling into place. Goodluck with the interview. Enjoy the Disturbed show.

[rae418]

I will!!!

hey rach

[anonymous]

Rach-
you are doing okay...good!! i tried leaving u some ims over hte past few montsh and haven't heard from ya. Glad to see that things are going awesome for ya, and i'm really proud of ya!! i hope the job thing works out for ya...im currently in the job hunt too...it sucks ass!!! drop me an im sometime...we need to catch up!! love ya rach!
-spriss