Comments | raemcn: Wish I could fix my brain

raemcn

Wish I could fix my brain

Dec 30, 2020 22:58

I am one screwed up bag of shit. The only friends I have left are my husband and children. And my children have their own lives. I have so severely cut myself off from the world and other people.

My brain loves to tell me how no one wants to talk to me, everyone thinks I’m an idiot, everything I do is stupid and useless, and I am good for nothing ( Read more... )

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anonymous December 31 2020, 05:19:06 UTC

Oh Rae, that breaks my heart. I am similarly reclusive but not because my brain talks me out of relationships with people. Not in the same anyway. I’m really sorry you lost your friend. 48 is way too young to die. I’m still around if you want to talk. Same email address. {{hugs}}

megan_peta December 31 2020, 07:19:16 UTC

This is me, btw.

raemcn January 2 2021, 04:58:07 UTC

I don't know how to talk to people. It took me two days to answer because I was trying to come up with something to say. You can see how spectacularly I failed at that. I am okay. I will be okay. I just fear what will happen if my husband dies before me. He doesn't just put up with my insanity, he loves me as I am. Thank you for wanting to help me. I still love you even if I don't know how to talk to people.

megan_peta January 7 2021, 14:27:43 UTC

The first step is saying hello. I don’t talk to people much anymore, either. I have slowly started getting back involved in fandom, though, and it’s been really fun. I’m here for you, whenever you are ready to reach out. I sent you an email the day you posted this, did you get it? I’ve been sick a lot lately so if I don’t respond straight away don’t get disheartened.

tangwstyl December 31 2020, 06:06:34 UTC

Oh, honey. I was thinking about you the other day - actually yesterday. I had a thought that I missed you, and I was wondering how you were doing. You aren't forgotten. Email me at milseanmara at hotmail dot com. You aren't shit. Not by a long shot.

tangwstyl January 1 2021, 06:38:45 UTC

Btw, that was me, Niamh.

raemcn January 2 2021, 05:03:09 UTC

I knew who it was. I haven't forgotten your LJ handle. I don't know how to talk to people so it took me a while to even answer. I would email, but I don't know what to say and I also can't promise that I would be able to continue with any subsequent emails after. The answering of this is hella hard for me. I lost Tam cause I don't know how to be a good friend anymore. I will be okay. I love you even if I don't know how to talk anymore, just so you know.

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raemcn January 2 2021, 05:08:41 UTC

Thank you, hugs and love in return. I hope your life is wonderful. I am just no good at social interaction.

cordykitten January 1 2021, 20:59:11 UTC

*Hugs you tight* 48 is too young to die . Sadly we don't get asked what we want.
LJ is a good placa to vent if you need to.

raemcn January 2 2021, 05:09:54 UTC

Wish I knew the formula for normal interaction. Thank you for being here. Loves and hugs even if I don't know what to say.

velvetwhip March 3 2022, 01:50:50 UTC

I am so sorry. You have no idea how much alike we are. But I'm here, far, far later than I should be, but I'm reaching out to say that if you want someone to talk to, I'd be happy to give you my email or any contact info you'd like.

Also, Happy Birthday.

Gabrielle