this has to end, but I can't bring myself to delete this journal, too many memories held here. but one of these days it will be gone cause I'm getting too old for this.

God knows I need direction. I never thought it would happen but I am actually beginning to despise my guitar,I never thought it would happen but I am actually beginning to despise my guitar, its not that I am unhappy with it or anything, its just I can't write and or sing songs I never thought it would happen but I am actually beginning to despise ( Read more... )

so tommorow I am off. and once again spending a day thinking of deep hidden thoughts, I am at a loss of words. I spent most of my day in the catholic graveyard, I realized that gravestones are man's last piece of vanity left on this earth, even in this local strech harldy larger than a football feild, probably smaller, gaudy large stones stood ( Read more... )

I swear to god I am going to die someday from one of John's "adventures". it was a lazy monday afternoon and we decided since I had never been up rattlesnake cliff, that we should climb. We left around 3 o'clock. At the start it proved to be an easy hike, just like any other hike. Then John said "look", and I saw a waterfall of pure ice off the ( Read more... )

"he is refuseing ( Read more... )

lets just say things get expodentially better when someone tells you that you mean somthing to them, like what you do matters.

LIES LIES LIES and complacency, I've had too much and I want more. LIES LIES LIES! see the world and me have a give and take relationship, I give what I can and take abuse. Take and take like I don't care and then complain, but I don't care, or at least I won't tell you. why lie when all I want is truth, but no one can give me truth but myself ( Read more... )

congratulations me, I just pulled an elephant out of my ass. I had the best night of my life. details to follow in the morning when m head stops pounding. damn elephants.

so the dresden dolls are coming back to VT. this is cause for celebration, now I am going to have to pull an elephant out of my ass so I can get over there. I swear I'm gonna hitch hike if worst comes to worst. I just need to go.

Once upon a time when I was a little boy there was a blue lake with waters you could see straight through to the bottom, it was a perfectly sunny day with clear skies and a small breeze. Out with my sibblings we played on this rope swing that brough us great joy. Then during my turn I swung out and looked down, below in the waters a strange shadow ( Read more... )