Okay, it's official: I am an 8th grader stuck in a 24-year-old's body. Why why oh why must we learn things over and over again? Does that really count as "learning," technically? Dear Johnny described it as watching a trainwreck happen in slow motion in your own head. You're driving the train, you know it's going to be a freakin' disaster, but you ( Read more... )

After a somewhat raucous morning, I escaped out the front door with Father-In-Law Bob to Starbucks to work on homework. I was stressed, in need of caffeine, tired of worried Daniel pinching at my arm and tired of Brad making me think for myself. I was quiet (as usual with him) and as we neared the highway, he looked at me and said, "This isn't what ( Read more... )

I don't usually write in the mornings, but i had dreams all night last night, so here i am ( Read more... )

My friend David had a dream (nightmare?) about me the other night involving myself and a strange bird. This was random and silly, but it stuck in his head and he wrote it down. I read about it, laughed and was amused by the general absurdity of it all. But then it stuck in my head all day too. And still, tonight, I think of it and wonder where it ( Read more... )

I remember standing at the edge of a brilliant red cliff on the coast of Maine when I was seventeen. The water was that kind of boiling blue that makes you wonder if it's really just reflecting the sky. My hair was short and greasy from camp "showers." I had a boy's ring on a chain around my neck and a blue bandana on my head. All around my feet, ( Read more... )

"Truth consists in the mind giving to things the importance they have in reality."-- Jean Danielou ( Read more... )

"i will call out to You. it's the only thing that i know to do ( Read more... )

I am very much looking forward to Frassati Friday. Very much looking forward to Jacob's baptism. These are good things, the things that I hope will give me the strength to start next week, and the next. It is time, it's been long enough. I'm tired of playing at having it all together and I want a vacation. We went to the park tonight, because ( Read more... )

So sometimes I scribble things as life goes by. It gets too much or too amazing or too... something, whatever I can't hold inside anymore. I cleaned out my purse today and found ten pages I had folded up and stuffed in there at various times over the last several months. I guess the increased weight of my purse could be partially attributed to this ( Read more... )

best episode of "My-So-Called Life" ever? "Self-Esteem." Does this qualify me as a complete and total nerd? Yes, it does ( Read more... )