Staying Away From The Holidays

[ragzdandelion]

The snow has arrived. I hate snow. It makes driving a frigging nightmare, it's cold and it's always trying to kill me.

But, I had to venture out this morning to pay bills and try to find a cheap gift for a co-worker because we're doing that whole Secret Santa thing. I don't have any clue what to get this guy. He lives such a different life than I

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[ext_4421507]

Who did you get? Maybe I can help. Christmas sucks.... I’ve hated it forever. Yet, I’m obligated to celebrate it again... I didn’t for years. I would have khakula and Chinese food, a warm bath, video games and take a me day. Lock myself in my house, turn off my phone. My nieces and nephew knew they’d get their gifts eventually just not on Christmas.

[ragzdandelion]

I ended up just ordering a Flint hat from Flint City T-shirts. I think he'll dig it. I don't really know what the guy is into, he doesn't interact with me much, so. yeah.
Stacey made Christmas fun, I've never been a big fan of it, but she made it special. I just want to avid it all. It just makes more work, difficult situations and, of course, just thinking of all the ones her & I spent together will keep me busy.

[ext_4421507]

I think that’s a great idea for like 90% of the guys that work there. Right, I’m dreading dealing with it all. Can’t it be January yet? I’m totally going to try to crochet during the work party.

[ext_4418683]

I know you're hurting. I wish there was something i could say or do to make it better. The first Christmas is the hardest. *hugs*

[ragzdandelion]

Thanks, Amy. I know you know how I feel. I am trying to focus on other things but all I really wanna do is lay in bed and think of Stacey. I feel so lost and far from myself. Like I don't even know who I am anymore. I've never dealt with this overwhelming despair before.