it's happening again

[rai_kai_lai]

two of five.
two.
my middle finger and my thumb.
they're gone.

what's happening to me?
the same old thing
the same old
the same
the...

the same fucking thing that happens every time i try to make myself happy over a friend's happiness.
i'm happy.
i'm over the moon; on top of the world.

then it starts
it's one.
straight away it's one person.

a few days later, it's

Comments

[moonflowe]

:( *bigggghug* I'm sorry this is happening to you.

[rai_kai_lai]

/hug.

it doesn't help that the one person that can help me is in michigan.

[moonflowe]

Really? ;__; I guess that's like me too. For awhile, my only friend that I could rely on is in California.