love my ry! 3/21/2005 ( Read more... )

Events last night ( Read more... )

Father knows best-> 3/11/2005 ( Read more... )

Cant sleep 3/10/2005 ( Read more... )

Well god.. I cant do it anymore.. I cant take it anymore.. I cant hurt anymore.. I cant.. Im slipping god... I cant take the pain.. I cant take being walked all over .. I cant take feeling like Im nothing.. I just want someone to love me, someone to care.. Someone to trully find me special.. please god. I cant take it.. more of me is dying ( Read more... )

12 things 3/10/2005 ( Read more... )

He says he will do anything possible to get me back.. But he doesn't understand that its harder than that.. he hurt my hurt, he damaged my soul.. I thought we were soul mates but we aren't.. my life is dark because I again have been betrayed..And I can't take it.. its killing me on the insides.. I trully love him and I get ready to just shed all ( Read more... )

Well me and Ryan broke up tonight because I found out he had phone sex with this girl.. and like he told her he would cheat on me with her... So yea.. we are truefully done.. For now anyway.. He will have to earn me back.. Maybe he will find someone else who will be everything he wants- maybe he will find whatever it is he wants out of a ( Read more... )

While me and him were arguing.. and we broke up for the night he cheated on me...

its over between me and him. I wont put up with that!!

Brittany

I think Im going to take up cutting again.. because it seems to take away pain.. I would love to just take myself out of my misery.. and just be gone.. into another world.. But I wont do drugs.. no I wont.. Nothing will take me back to that.. I hope not anyway.. I cant wait to put my knife on my arm and to just make the blood drip.. I want to so ( Read more... )