i am staying at home tonight. i havent been feeling well all day and do not wish to go to the bar for another night of sitting around and paying ass loads of money to not get drunk. i tried to hang out with some other people, well, one person because it seems like thats all my friends are limited to now. i really dislike feeling this way but ( Read more... )

We had a pretty bad scare with my grandfather tonight. Cindy took him to the dentist and when they were cming back he started acting funny. they called my mom and 911. His blood pressure was really high. They gave him his meds and got it down to a high normal. It was so high he could have had a heart attack or stroke, i just dont know why it did ( Read more... )

i know i havent wrote in forever and no one will probably read this but i am really pissed off and crying and jes is on the phone with Kira so i cant talk to her ( Read more... )

Wow i was reading through my journal today. I used to write alot more than I did. I am going to leave all the old post up for you to read. Somethings I may even let other people see. I used to let all of my friends in too but since i stopped writing no one knows anything. i think its very sad. I think i need to write more for my health. I cant do ( Read more... )

me and sam are really doing better. I really do care about her... a lot too when she isnt drunk. She does so good about not gettign drunk all the time. she says that i make her want to be a better person. she cares about herself again. its good that she is learning to take care of herself so she can make me happy. and she does when we are together ( Read more... )

well last night was the concert she has been waiting months to go see... it ment so much to her blah blah blah. not sure why... she even cried at the concert... i guess i kinda understand to her My Chem is like my Pink ( Read more... )

its about her again...

i think i want to tell sam i love her. i think she wants to say it too but is holding back.

sighs... things are just so amazing with her

things have been going so well, i love being with her. she makes me so happy. i spend so much time with her but im not trapped inside and its not just the two of us. last night we went fishing with her friends and their kids. it was so much fun. i love cuddling with her. i think im falling in love with her. she makes me so happy. I make her really ( Read more... )

so im starting to post everyday and its even getting on my nerves but i had a great night with sam. we went out to chinese food, we were gonna play pool but all the tables were taken so we went home and cuddles and teased each other until we had sex. its just so amazing im so happy with her and so relaxed, nothing else matters. its always so much ( Read more... )

we are doing so great. last night was amazing. she knew i was upset because of my mom and all that jazz...she made me lay my head on her and we cuddled all night and she turned my phone off so i wouldnt have to put up with everyone needing me. it was her time with me they can all wait. if i wasnt so stressed out then it might be a little ( Read more... )