Okay, i feel like everything should be okay, i should be happy, i feel like i dont want or need anybody, but the truth is im not okay.  So what if u have a few more effing brain cells then me. Dont fucking "Heres your sign me" Or i'll shove a fucking heres your sign right up your fucking ass, cunt.

Ehh. its 12 and i cant sleep. i have an exam ( Read more... )

Ive suddenly picked up this Christian Dior obsession. I like the girly edition. Man, this is gross. Lauryn liking designer? whoaaa. I got a good price on my bag though.

So. I miss steph and she should come home right now.

THERE BITCH ARE YOU HAPPY?? I UPDATED MY EFFING LJ. lol u know i love you!

Kiss kiss
Lauryn

God, I dont understand situations like these anymore. Theres always a time when you think that everythings going to be alright, but in reality its not. No matter how many times you tell your self that Everything is fine, its not. And for some reason we all believe that for a little while, Then reality hits us.. and its like. Wow. This seems so hard ( Read more... )

Ahh. I'm soo bored. I made of of those myspace things today. ehh. it seems cool but lisa's my only friend. heh. Oh well. Man, i feel so sad today. like, i dont want to do anything, but at the time sitting here by my self leaves me feeling so empty i can hardly stand it. This is really wierd. i havent felt like this in along time.

'I am the only ( Read more... )

Oh man, I dont know what to write, the words are in my head but i dont know how to write them. I feel sad. Sat up real late last night reading an old poem book from 9th grade. They were all so morbid. I know why, which is the sad part.

SheXxfadedxXpink: biology gay
FeelHotPink: homeschooling gay
FeelHotPink: homeschooling prom?
FeelHotPink: gayer
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Well, I guess theres really no way to avoid drama. Shit happens. Some people told me that no mattter how old you get there will always be drama. I'm just so sick of it. Certain people in my life think that Our world revoles around our friends relationship problems, and who said what issues, im jsut sooo sick of it. I'm just sick of everytime the ( Read more... )

Yay, so here i am. Home. After an extremly agervating yet strange flight. Man, Goodbyes are so hard. I miss Bethanne. We definetly made some good memories that well probobly be talking and laughing about 20 years to come.

SheXxfadedxXpink: hahahhahah oh dear loryn i do love you

I love you 2 steph! hehe

Man, im hella bored right now. Cant wait ( Read more... )

Man, Altogether, this week wasnt all that bad, it was just hella boring and i missed you guys soo much. But in about 16 hours i should be sleeping in my own bed back in NJ. That sounds sooo good. I going out with Beth later today, probobly do some serious shopping. Ontario Mills owns. Theres like 300 outlet stores, so everything is good and cheap. ( Read more... )

Well, im not gonna be around later to update, so i figured ill do it now. I'm spending the night at beth and Ants tonight. I hope theres no alcohol. That stuffs kinda icky. it makes me feel all icky. But then agian, if there is, its not like i have to drink it or anything. Ehh. Oh well. Shopping tomarrow probobly with beth. yay. man, im gonna have ( Read more... )

Man, i cannot wait to get home. i miss everyone so much. New Jersey kinda does kick ass. I never thought i would say that. Damn, i cant wait till april, i wanna be able to drive soooo bad. God, im such a terrible driver im not quite sure if thats even a good idea, ehh. But thats okay!! Man, theres nothing to write. Oh yea, i wrote a peom today, its ( Read more... )