i miss my guy friends.
girls piss me off.

i'm so burnt out.
RAKE: i raked leaves for 2 hours
HABITAT FOR HUMANITY: i built a basement of one house and nailed siding to another.

i am a real man.

i mean, please, do you want a piece of me?

right now ( Read more... )

one week starting now.

gah.

i fell asleep at 11 last night and woke up at 130 and drug myself to my bed.
i needed it.
i slept through calling melissa at midnight and i can't get that back.
this morning we watched saved by the bell.
becky the duck died, from an oil spill, i teared up.
sidenote: relax, not everything can be perfect.
studying all night for my test tomorrow.
blah. it's ( Read more... )

i don't like blaming how i act on physical/mental problems.
but i do know that i am not myself, especially as of late.
i can't even realize i'm getting stressed out, 
and i just quit caring about how i probably make people feel
 who are lucky enough to wittness me in one of my mood swings.
i overreact probably, but i just sometimes feel like i can be ( Read more... )

i need something fantastic to happen.
i need someone fantastic to happen.
please?

i want to think someone's beautiful,
that they're so beautiful,
it's a thrill to be near them.
fill my stomach with butterflies,
have me floating on air,
bring something out of me,
i didn't know was there.
i want somebody who will either put out for me
or put me out of misery
or ( Read more... )

obviously my whole idea of how people should act/feel when it comes to those they "care about" is totally wrong.
actually i know it's right, but no one cares anymore about anyone but themselves.
well most people.

friends don't screw friends over.
case and point.
especially knowing how upset they are or will be.
how do you see someone so upset and still ( Read more... )

we did.
so Brittany and I were coming home from class last night and we were about to go into our apartment...
when this boy comes flying through the other door and says: "hi, i'm mark, nice to meet you." 
in the cutest brittish accent i have ever heard in my lifetime. 
"i live above you, so if my music is ever to loud come up and let me know." 
i am in ( Read more... )

moving on up tomorrow.


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"do you have money saved?" - dad

"no, i just gave all my money to college park, and i haven't gotten paid again yet" me

" you should be saving money"  -dad

i'm so fucking annoyed. when was i supposed to save more, when i haven't been paid again yet.
seriously.
i need out of here before i kill myself or someone else.

i still have yet to go shopping for ( Read more... )