i am increasingly paranoid and anxious. i have found myself talking to myself out loud in public. i cry for no reason. i also laugh for no reason. sometimes i will go to a store and then not remember why i am there. sometimes i am really afraid.

it's snowing like whoa outside. it's really pretty. i just wish that i didn't have to drive in it.

well now, i'm just confused. you can't be sad about this, because you're the one who couldn't be bothered.

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Your name? amber ( Read more... )

playing kitten cannon should probably make me feel like a horrible person. but no, it makes me smile.

"and you see brothers and sisters all engaged in sport of health. making merry out of nothing, just like refugee camp ( Read more... )

oct. 30 2004 ( Read more... )

i wish i knew how to say it. but i don't.

this happened when my i was looking through cartons of records to take home with me. unbeknownst to me, there were books in said cartons. the conversation goes as follows:

grandmom: take them all. get them out of my house.
amber: oh, i will.
(aunt)nance: (holding up a book) "important people of the bible and what they did". sounds like a good one.
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